love me until the end

getting home

Bailey jumps up and grabs her stuff before saying she needs to get home, this is confusing, and why does she want to get home so quickly? Maybe she has something to do tomorrow and needs to go to sleep.

Who knows, we walk up to my car and bailey jumps in before I get the chance to open the door for her. I get in and she tells me to hurry up and drive, we start driving we get around the corner before I ask why she must go suddenly.

"Why do you need to go home so suddenly?"

"My dad will be home soon from work and if I'm not home I will be in trouble".

"Oh, where does he work?"

"He works as a businessman I'm not quite sur what for, he never tells me".

"That's weird, so do you like him going away for long times".

"Well, I don't really get a choice if I like it or not, I have to be ok with it".

"It must suck not being able to see you father".

"Yeah, but its ok we aren't very close anyways".

"Aw why not?"

"Well, when my mum passed away, my dad didn't cope well with it, he resorted to drinking and smoking for a way to cope, he then started releasing his anger out on me when he got mad or upset. I always thought he was sad, so I didn't blame him for it I just thought that he didn't mean it".

"That's terrible, why don't you move out?"

"I can't, not until I find a stable job and somewhere to live, I'm not able to leave, so I just try staying at friends' places to spend time away".

"Come with me" I say without thinking about what I had just said.

"What? No, I can't, as much as I wish I could, I cannot, I must take care of my dad he still has not let go of the past and accepted the fact that mum's dead".

"I'll provide for you; your dad has to let go".

"I said no Jacob!" she says, sounding a little angry.

Shit I messed up I should not have pushed it, but it is so hard when she has already gone through all this stuff, losing her mum, her dad being abusive, and now losing her best friend I cannot even begin to imagine what type of pain she is going through right now. I honestly just want to hold her and not let go make her know she is safe and that she is not alone.

"I'm sorry".

"it's ok I'm sorry for lashing out, it's just it's hard to imagine my dad being alone even through everything he's done to me, it's not his fault it's not fair he has to go through this alone, he has no-one else I'm his only child".

This made me have a realisation on why she is so self-included, why she keeps to herself, it is because her personal life is shit.

We reach her house, and she jumps out of her car, before coming to my window and giving me a kiss goodnight. That was weird she seemed relieved when she saw there was no car in the driveway, why would she look relieved her dad is not home. Now I start to question why she does not move out, even if she is his only child, she should still have the right to feel safe and secure when going home, so why she need to stay with her dad if she is getting hurt and beaten up. All these thoughts are now running through my mind, but I guess it is her own life I must let her do her own thing, I do not question it any further. Before driving off home, I look out the window and see her walk in the door, I had to make sure she got inside safely, I drive off.

(Bailey's mind)

As soon as Jacob read the time out to me, I knew I had to get home as quick as possible, my dad was going to be home soon from work. And is he finds out I was out of the house I am going to be in so much trouble. Even though I should feel safe at home I do not.

Jacob seems surprised but I do not have time to explain to him why I need to get home so quickly. I must leave before my father gets home, whenever I leave the house without him knowing I always get in trouble, I either get yelled at or hit and right now in this moment I do not really feel like having to deal with my abusive father. I wish I could tell Jacob what is going on with my home life right now, but I cannot just not yet, I mean I only just met the guy even though I have said he is amazing I cannot open to people that easily anymore because last time I did I either got rejected or was abandoned and no one believed, and they took advantage of my innocence.

My home life is shit, whenever my dad drinks or gets mad he beats me for periods of time, it feels as though I do not have an actual life worth living sometimes, I wish I could just go to sleep and not wake and honestly it sounds like a pretty nice way to leave this earth. No-one to worry about missing me, no pain, and I would not have to deal with my dad beating me anymore. And I mean Jacob would not be that heartbroken the barley knows the troubles that are happening in my life.

We start turning around the corner near my street and I start to feel relieved as we turn into my street and there is no car in the car park.

I jump out and walk of as Jacob looks back to make sure I get in safely; I think he does not know that I know he is looking at me, but I do. I walk inside and place my stuff on the couch before laying down and reaching for my phone, oh shit where it, fuck I left it at the party is. I run out to see if Jacobs still there, he is. I run to the car and go to his side.

"Hey Jacob, I left my phone at Sophia's place".

"Oh, right do you want me to go grab it for you".

"All good see you soon".