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till death do us apart (chanlix)

tw ; blood / su!c!de / gore details 

moving away the debris in front of him, chan wiped the sweat from his forehead. his white t-shirt now covered with black charcoal spots, he coughed and choked, falling onto the jagged ground as he struggled to breath.

feeling sweat roll down his face, his body shook from exhaustion as he got up once more. pulling his shirt over his nose a little, he took a deep breath as he yelled out, ❝ felix! ❞.

shakily and slowly moving through the now damaged city, he tried to comprehend whatever had happened.

it was the year 9082. the world was near the end as regular meteor showers ate away at cities, ending lives of almost everyone. chan had hoped it never hit sydney, but it did, and right next to the plaza he and his boyfriend lived at.

walking through the bloody field, he felt sick to his stomach, looking at birds pecking at the dead bodies eyes and decaying bodies. he felt himself gag, as he looked at one with their skull almost visible, as crows and other insects ate away at it.

❝ felix! ❞ he yelled out once more, as he started to walk faster, desperatly wanting to find his boyfriend. finally getting the courage, he started to turn over bodies, trying to find a face which would match his boyfriends.

❝ fe..felix? ❞ chan whispered to himself, spotting a body. his strength giving up on him, he tried his best to crawl towards the body.

❝ oh my god, felix! ❞ he cried out, pulling the body towards him and crying. his hands shook as he noticed the other didn't react.

❝ felix hon...? ❞ chan said, his voice a whisper as he slightly shook the other in his arms. hands shaking, tears started to fall as he realization dawned upon him.

❝ no...no felix... ❞ he said, as he shook the other harder.

❝ wake up my beloved, please wake up... ❞ he sobbed, as he hugged the others fragile body. putting a hand near the others neck, he froze.

the other had no pulse

he didn't want to believe it. his sunshine was gone, but he just couldn't accept it.

❝ wake up felix... please! i don't want to live in a world without you... ❞ chan sobbed harder, as he frantically looked around.

breathing ragged, he spotted an iron rod. he stared at it, chewing on his lip as he felt time stop.

grabbing the iron rod, he looked at felix, placing a kiss on the others forehead. ❝ i do not see the point of living in a world without you, my beloved ❞ he said, as he plunged the iron rod into his stomach.

he winced, falling backwards as he coughed up blood. tears welled up in his eyes as his body shook.

he felt his eyes get heavy, as he smiled. taking one last look at the melancholy sky, he felt his body slowly loose conscious.

...

❝ c-chan ? ❞

felix felt tears well up in his eyes as he looked at his lover, eyes closed with dried up blood on his face, with an iron rod in his stomach.

❝ f-fuck- chan no- ❞ felix felt his mind go foggy as his arms shook. he was in denial. he wanted to think it was all a sick joke. 

acting quick, he positioned his stomach on top of his lovers, he winced as he sunk himself onto the iron rod. his strength giving up on him as he fully dropped down, feeling blood seep everywhere on his stomach.

both lay there, as felix slowly lost conscious, grabbing chan's arm with whatever strength he had left as he wrapped it around himself.

❝ i love you chan ❞ he muttered out, before his eyes closed.

and everything went dark.