Book 2: Deja Vu

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4 years later

Justine's.

4 years have been passed and the pain is still here, right at this moment. Every day, waking up in the morning was a big mistake for me, telling myself that I should be the one being dropped down to that ground, not my Emma.

Every fucking day, I go up, staring blankly at my ceiling, blaming myself then I go check my twins. Yes, I have time and it was the hardest thing for me as a parent to remind them that their mommy was already gone.

At first, they didn't believe it, but they coping up by accepting it. Harvey was always taking her twin sister as he promise her mommy. And for Harley, she mostly checks on me, like in the middle of the night, she will bring Harvey and her toy, Mr. Sniffles to my room where they will join me to sleep in there.

Everything was fine, for them, but to me? I don't know, it's a fucking trauma on my asshole. My life was either at the company or here or at the bar. I'm trying to kill myself slowly by bottling up every drink in our bar, matching by huffing the cancerous stick.

And the case, the fucking case that everyone ignores it, was now a mess. At first, we have it, but it was the end of my line. I seek help from Marga, but she was striving, and I guess I'm already impeding her time.

"Good morning, Young Mistress." Bernard opened the drapes from my room and I groaned out of irritation.

"Fuck off, Bernard. I wanted to be alone." I told him while covering my face on my pillow.

"The children are waiting for you in joining them the breakfast." He sturdily replied.

"Tell them I'm busy, Bernard. Leave me alone!" I permanently shutting everyone off to me.

"Also, your father is here." I sighed when I removed the pillow and bringing myself up.

"What is he doing here?" I asked Bernard as I go to the toilet.

"He wants to see the twins, Young Mistress. Also, he brought a visitor in here too." He retorted.

After my short morning routine, I go out to the bathroom and I'm now heading to the walk-in dresser, asking "Who's the guest?"

"His name was Freddie Alistair. Your father's private investigator." I stopped from what I am doing and looked at him.

"I'll be down in a minute." I sternly ordered and finally, Bernard left my room.

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"Look who's finally came out to her cave." Dad greeted me while the kids ran to me and gave me big good morning hugs and kisses.

"Good morning Mama!" They both chorused cheerfully.

I carried my twins and they're getting heavy right now, I wish Emma was watching them growing up.

"Good morning Dad" I welcomed my father.

"I'll like you to meet Inspector Freddie Alistair." Dad introduced me to the inspector while I shook his right arm.

"Pleasure to meet you, Mrs. Cruz. I would like to help with the investigation of your wife's tragic accident." Mr. Alistair started and I responded to him with a nod.