𝕋𝕠𝕞𝕒𝕟𝕤 ℙ𝕣𝕚𝕟𝕔𝕖𝕤𝕤|𝕂. 𝔹𝕒𝕛𝕚

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It was Saturday evening and you and the boys
made it back to your house. Your mom heard what happened and of course flipped out. Little did she know what you did to the other guys.

You know how there's like soccer moms for the cute little kids, who bring cuties and capri suns and drive mini vans n shit. Well your mom was the "Gang mom", she made sure everyone was good. She always welcomed them in and had a little mini garage built in the back yard for all of your motorcycles. A lot of their moms weren't present in their lives for countless reasons, so she was just, there, ya know ?

  "What do you guys want to eat, ask now because I have to leave for the airport soon."

  "Airport?", you questioned.

  "Yea I have to go back home AGAIN to finish some stuff with the little ones dad."

You nodded, you and your two younger siblings all had different dads and shit was just complicated. Your thoughts were interrupted by Mikey asking for Lasagna soup.

As your mom cooked the meal , you guys talked about what to do for the next few days. The cops already showed up and cleared everything up since a surveillance camera caught everything. It was deemed self defense. They were all alive anyways wasn't like you killed anyone.

  "Hey ma can they stay here since you're taking everyone with you for a few days.

  "That's fine", she answered "just don't tear up my house or imma tear you up."

  "Draken can you go in the linen closet and get some blankets and pillows and set up the two guest rooms, I don't want y'all in my room." you asked tiredly.

  "So you don't love us no more?", he questioned.

  "No, not at all"

They all looked at you funny.

  "My god I was kidding I just know Smiley farts in his sleep and Mikey probably pisses the bed, i'm just not in the mood for that shit."

This was probably the first time in a while you've seen Angry smile.

  "It was one time Draken, why did you tell everyone", the small boy pouted.

The other four boys were howling with laughter. You felt bad it probably was just an accident. Like when you have a dream you were on the toilet, but you weren't.

  "Now if I shoot this bitch up I bet shit won't be funny then", Mikey snapped.

It immediately went quiet. "That's what the fuck I thought."

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Hours later, the house was silent and everyone was in bed for the night. Laying on your back staring at the ceiling, thoughts raced through your mind a million miles per second. Baji had gotten another girl pregnant. That's not something you just brush past in a relationship.

The same girls that tormented you and harassed you for months, they body shamed you, slut shamed you, all because they felt "above" you.

You hated to admit it, but it got to you. Every word ate you up like a fucking disease. You pushed it down and ignored it the best you could, cause at the end of the day you had what they didn't. You were better than them in every way. It felt wrong to compare yourself to somebody in that way, but there was no way in hell they were just going to walk over you and treat you like a lame ass bitch.

That's what made you keep going. That voice in the back of your head that reminded you who the fuck you are. That boyfriend of yours was the next thought that popped in your head.

Baji is so broken. He's been through so much. He lost his mom five years ago, caused by an argument he started. The men that helped in her murder kidnapped him and held him hostage for 6 fucking months. They molested and beat him to the brink of death.

Somewhere in his mind he always pushed you away from this specific situation. He thought that you thought that he wasn't worth loving. His mom was the best, but there's only so much one women could do. He watched his dad beat her growing up, and when they were finally able to get away from it all. She was murdered, right in front of him at that.

There's so much other shit that he deals with and keeps bottled up, causing him to push away the people he cares about the most. You knew he was in love with you, but a part of him felt like his actions would cause you to stop loving him.

Not even realizing that he's doing it anyways subconsciously. It was fucking exhausting falling in love with someone who needed so much emotional and mental help.

He is an amazing person. He's loving and understanding, he never manipulated you or lied to you. Well not up until recently anyway. Baji is everything you could ask for in a boyfriend. It was just hard not being able to make him see that.