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                                                                nightmare (more of an explaination) 

"its all your fault."

"why are you still alive."

"you're a burden. get lost."

"you deserve to die alone in hell."

"your parents were right. you are a mistake."

"leave."

"die."

Your lips trembled as you were trembling while in a kneeling position with endless tears streaming down your pale face. The large, looming figures looked down at you with disgusted faces as if you were a parasite and continued to spit hurtful words at you. Being hopeless was the only thing you could do at that moment. Desperately trying to block out the hurtful words by covering your ears, it was no help at all. Sanity slowly rotting and disappearing, the tears stopped spilling out of your glossy eyes. 

"Hah...It was right to kill you all. Blaming a child because of your blindness and stubbornness. It was right to kill you. I'll keep killing you over and over in your next lives until you can't respawn like the fucking trash you all are. Even if you change forms millions of times, I'll search the whole planet just to kill you. So rot and burn in hell, pigs."

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3rd POV

Just like many Y/N stories, our Y/N in here has her own tragic past. A once beautiful and kind hearted soul has turned into one where it is unrecognisably different. What happened? Read on...

"YUKI CHAN! I FOUND YOU!"

"Hey Y/N chan! How are you?"

The two girls walked along side with each other, basking in the warmth of eachothers presence. In a rural and quiet village located in Kyoto, strict rules were applied to the young girl named Yuki despite being only 13 years old. Yuki came from a rich and well off family which attracted many money hungry people claiming to be 'close' with her. In the end, she locked herself in an endless river of lonliness and distrust, closing the door to her heart whenever someone tries to converse with her. 

she met the main character L/N Y/N and slowly accepted the friendship. 

Even if she talks with Y/N, Yuki refuses to converse with anyone except the main character. Their friendship was warm and lovely which bloomed to an even the most beautiful rose whenever they met eachother.

Behind closed doors, Yuki was under constant pressure and mental abuse from her parents due to belonging to a reputable family. In the end, she tragically ended her life leaving the poor Y/N to be the blame of the girls death. The reputable family pushed the blame on Y/N as an excuse to not tarnish the family name, leading the villagers to also fault the young girl. After all, it was pretty believable as Y/N was the only person permitted to speak to Yuki. Y/N was stuck and lost in her life. Why was she to blame?

She was slowly swallowed by the devil and committed something atrocious. 

Murder. 

She used a single kitchen knife to  brutally murder the family of her friend Yuki and her own ignorant parents. When the police arrived, all they found was the a pool of blood dripping through the stained floor boards and a girl playing with a knife in the corner. 

Guess what,, she was arrested. 

That was when Y/N met her other half F/N, in juvenile. Without the help of a counsellor, they both recovered by creating their own morals and ethics to escape the guilt. When being released from prison, they ruled over Kyoto in a short amount of time until F/N lost to her will to live. This was the second time our main character has experienced loss and finally cracked. She lost her sadistic nature and somehow managed to survive, despite not taking care of herself. She moved to Shibuya to escape the painful memories of her deceased friend and days went on by like a flash. Her body was an empty shell with a shrivelled up heart that managed to make a little pulse, possessing no soul whatsoever. Everything was dead in her eyes. 

It seemed that the god of fate pitied her life story and decided granted her two chances in life as two important people were lost in her life. As nature possess the give and take system, every time her life chance is used, she must switch whenever she is hanging on the verge of death and decides to revive herself. It is up to her is she ends up with the sadistic personality or the quiet personality. As Y/N revived herself already once, if she is on the verge of dying the next time and decides to use her life chance, she will return to being the quiet and the bored person she once was. Even the god of fate is unsure of Y/N's future. Whether she remains in her sadistic personality and kills everyone on Earth or changes into the quiet personality and lives a normal life, remains unknown. 

Life is truly a gamble

unedited

I got the covid vaccine today and i feel like shit bro

btw filler chapter