If That's What You Want [bakudeku] [bkdk]

If You Just..

12th February

"you know about valentine week?" says bakugo.
"no what is that"

"Feb 7 is rose day.."
"you gave me a rose the other day"

"Feb 8 is propose day"
"we will get there soon, right?"

"yes we will.. Feb 9 is chocolate day"
"we bought the chocolate i used to gave you"

"Feb 10 is teddy day"
"the day you gave me a teddy"

"Feb 11 is promise day"
"might be too late but promise me that we'll stay like this in a long period of time even if it means we're not together"

"i promise, Feb 12 is hug day"
"that's today"
"that's right deku"

deku's pov
we're walking with our bags behind us on the road, to our home after the academic time. like usual, we're walking together having a random chat. and after a few minutes, my house can be seen.
"this is my stop"
"im well aware of that"

i stopped walking to face kacchan. "Goodbye kacchan-" before i can finish my sentence he pulls me to his arm, wrapping me like a candy and make my face go against his warm shoulder. im in an awkward position but then when i got comfortable i fixed my position and hug him back in the waist.

"today is hug day. and I've always wanted to hug you". i close my eyes to enjoy his grips. he's holding me like he owns me, i don't mind, i like it even. just being kacchan's. "well it's getting hot.. bye deku"
i say my farewell as he leaves.
i get in my house.

there's something that's been lingering in my head. the first day that we dated, he said that maybe giving me a little chance won't hurt. he's wrong, he's really wrong, because dating him only makes me feel more attached. he had no idea how much would it hurts if he breaks up with me.

those anxiety in my head, thinking that he will leave me right after he got bored. "what if he dates me so i can move on after we broke up? what if he will leave me as soon as he finds someone better? what if he don't like me?" that's what has been lingering in my head. i tried my best to be on my tallest tip toes on my highest heels so he will stay with me.

"valentine week, what's tomorrow?" i googled up and i see it says.. "13th February, kiss day" i got shocked because, he did the promise day,teddy day, rose day, chocolate day and hug day, all that's left is kiss day. "will he kiss me tomorrow?"

13th February

bakugo's pov
"kacchan" he greeted me early in the morning. im waiting for him to wear his shoes like always and walk to the school. nothing much happens actually.. just our daily routine like walking to the school. learning. lunch breaks..
"kacchan.. uhm.. can you meet me behind the mall after school?" i can see his blush on his face.

deku's pov
Kacchan has done a lot for me. bitter and sweet. but i seems to forgot everything bad he did in the past time. He shines in my life and it overshadowed all the bad things. So today i decided that i wanted to be the one who shows a little bit more effort. 50/50 like a relationship should be. i came behind the mall and not wait for kacchan so i can prepare my own emotion.

bakugo's pov
i look around and i didn't see deku anywhere. i guess he went first. "meet me behind the mall" he said. taylor swift. i don't know what to expect when i see him.
"deku? in hundreds of places we can meet up and you pick here. what do you want to talk about?-"
"uh kacchan.. uhm.." he looks like he's full of doubt on his face and his face is all red.
"deku? cmon don't waste my time like this-"
he went jumping and wrap his hands on my neck and with closed eyes. he press his lips against me. and me without thinking, kisses him back. his kiss is passion but i couldn't give back the aura. my kiss is anxiety.

"it's kiss day, kacchan" i hug his waist and continue the kiss. im scared.. im scared that's whay i thought while we're having a enchanting moment. im scared of this feelings.. I WANT THIS TO BE OVER  that's my last thought before i break the kiss and push him to the ground.

I'm not used of these love thingy. im scared that if i fall for him it'll hurt me hard. im scared that i will hurt him. im scared that he will leaves me once he got tired of me. IM A COWARD! I NEED TO GET RID OF HIM! THIS IS BAD! IF HE WON'T LEAVE THEN I'LL MAKE HIM LEAVE ME!

"WHAT DO YOU THINK YOU'RE DOING?"
"k-kacchan?"
"DO YOU REALLY THINKS FOR A FEW DAYS OF US DATING YOU CAN JUST KISS ME LIKE THAT? "
"I-"
"UGH IT'S A MISTAKE FOR START DATING YOU! WHAT DID YOU EXPECT FROM ME  TO BE HONEST? FOR ME TO HATE YOU AND THEN JUST STOP HATING YOU AND THEN DATE YOU?!"
"kacchan im sorry-" he cried. i really hate seeing him crying. especially when i cause it but i can't.. im sorry deku.
"you said that you'll do anything i said right?! why don't you just die!-" *gasp* I've shouldn't done that.. that's too far. but.. deku prolly won't take it too seriously right?

i back off after i said those terrible words. deku also back off with the tears on his cheek that i made. im the blame i had to admit. he runs away and i can see his tears falls on the ground. and i couldn't say anything. as weak as a man i am, i ran away too. night passes by faster than usual and there's no word can be heard from deku.