Hanker love story

Chapter 7

Hande's POV :
"What??" I asked as if I didn't hear him say it.
"I told her to do it but before you freak out let me explain to you" he said to me.
"You're kidding me right? Is that a joke? Cause it's not funny kerem" I asked in disbelief.
"I'm not" he said and I didn't need to hear more right now. I just passed through him and walked towards the door.
"Where are you going?" He caught my hand.
"Leave me alone" I told him, I was mad.
"Let me explain first and if you decide to go I'll let you" as much as I wanted to slap him so hard right now I was curious to know why he did that. So I just sat on the couch.
"Explain" I ordered.

He took a deep breath and said "since we came from our vacation you started to work nonstop. I barely could talk to you or spending some time with you, you didn't eat properly, you lost weight, you barely talk to your family, you just cut off from the world.
I really try to be here for you and I know you've been going through a lot. I can't stand aside and do nothing. You're my girlfriend I won't let you ruin your life like this you understand me?" He cupped my face and looked deep in my eyes we shared some tears together. We never talk about it till now. I didn't know that he has all these feelings before.

"Why you didn't tell me before? Why are you keeping all these feelings for yourself ? , we're in a relationship you should tell me what you think!" I cried more.

"I didn't want to remind you what you felt 2 months ago I didn't want to hurt you"

"So you decided to do these kind of things behind my back? To get involved, to control my life like this?
Is that our kind of relationship? Now you think that you don't hurt me?! I feel like I don't know you anymore.." at this point he started to cry more we both cried as we were hopeless.

He held me close to his chest.
"I need some time alone to think" I finally said.
"Hande I'm sorry I didn't mean to hurt you, you know that it's the last thing I want to do, please don't go..."
"I know but i need some time to think. I can't forget what happened 10 minutes ago" I took a step away from him.
"I love you" he said desperate.
"I love you too it won't change, but I also need to think about myself right now, to clear up my mind"
"At least tell me where are you going" he said
"I'm going to gamze I don't know for how long"
"Wait" He said and looked me deep in my eyes, he cupped my face and kissed me a soft kiss with so much emotional.
"I won't give up on you no matter what" he said and then I left the house.

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I went to gamze's house I called her from my way and told her what happened.
I decided to tell gamze about my night in Seychelles like 2 weeks ago. She was so shocked and worried about me it took her a few days to be back to reality.

I opened her door, I was crying. I couldn't control myself. I can't believe he did it to me. To walk behind my back and talk to my manager? How can he do it?

Gamze hugged me so tight I felt home.
"Take this and try to relax a little bit" she handed me a glass of water.
"Thanks" I drank it like my life depends on it cause I really couldn't relax.
When I relaxed a little she finally asked me what she wanted to ask in the first place... "are you going to break up with him?"
"I don't want to think about it right now. All I know is that I can't trust him anymore. And I can't be near him right now"  I told her.

"You already know what I think about the situation but it doesn't even matter cause you need to take your own decision. He's your boyfriend at the end of the day." She said.

"I know, I think we need to take a break it'll do good for us both"

"Shh don't think about it let's have some girls night. Mavi is asleep and caner is out so we have the night for ourselves like the old good times" she was excited.
Actually I was missing her. I didn't have so much time lately and now I'm glad that we have time to spend together.
We watched a movie together and for a moment I really forgot about my problem.. till my phone buzzed in my pocket:

Askim: "I thought about what you say and I respect you, take all the time that you need to think and just rest. No matter what will happen I'll always be here for you. You're the most important person to me. Always remember it. Good night, love you.."
I thought a little before I texted back.
Me: "Thank you, I know that you're here and I appreciate it. But please give me some space even when you texted me it's hard for me to think straight. It's hard for me just as much as it hard for you but I need this break"
I texted him honestly.
Askim: "as you wish"
And then I just fell asleep.

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*7 days later*

Kerem's POV :
I didn't talk to hande since our last conversation which was 7 days ago. She asked me for space so I gave her, I was thinking a lot about what happened recently. I wish the night in Seychelles was only in our nightmare cause since then everything got changed. I was staring at my phone she didn't call or text for days and it drives me crazy.
I texted gamze and she told me she's fine at their home. One week is not enough to make up your mind? I think it's enough. Plus I want to know where our relationship is standing.
So I decided to go to her.

I knocked on the door and gamze opened me.
"Hey kerem how are you?" She asked worried, I love gamze she's always here for me.
"Well I had better days.. hande is here?"
"Yeah she's playing with mavi in her bedroom"
"Thanks" I smiled at her and entered the house.
I walked to her bedroom I saw her playing with mavi it was so cute, hande is so good with children. I always tell her that she'll be the best mother.

I knocked on the door although it was half open but just to let her know I'm here.
"Hey.. can we talk?" I asked a little nervous.
"Hey, yeah of course" she said and walked out the room with mavi in her hands.
She came back 2 minutes later and close the door.
"So.. it's been a week and I missed you.. did you make up your mind already?" I asked.

"Actually yes, it was hard for me but I want you to see my side. You're my boyfriend, I should trust you 100% and if I don't there's a big problem, after what happened I can't trust you anymore. You did something that I never thought you'll do and it hurt me a lot. I know your intentions you're an amazing person, but what you did is wrong. And right now I think the best for us is... to break up"

I felt my blood pressure started to get high, I was so shocked at her decision. To break up after all we've been through?

"Is that really what you want? Is that really what will make you happy?" I saw tears fall from her eyes.
"You make me happy but I can't do it anymore.. you broke my trust and basically everything that we built together" she said to me.

I walked towards her and hugged her I pull her to my chest and stroked her hair
"Please kerem you're doing it hard for me"
"Don't do it hande, I love you so much. I'll fix it I promise. I knew I fucked up but I'm willing to change it. Let's change it together and start all over"

She looked me deep in my eyes. She stroked my cheek and half smiled at me.
"You're the best thing that happened to me, I love you I really do, I wish I was not loving you this much because then it was less hard for me to do it.
But I need it to myself, please respect it"

I just cried cause I was overwhelmed at this point.
If that's really what she wants I need to respect it.
"Ok I'll respect your decision for now. But it's not the end and you know it. We said one year ago that we meant to be and I still believe it"
"Can I kiss you one last time?" I added.

She nodded and cupped my face, she kissed me softly but then I deepened the kiss as our tongue fought with each other. We kissed for at least 2 minutes till she broke the kiss and said "I think you should go now"
And just like she said I walked outside.

End of chapter 7

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