Diamond Walls

One: The Pain The Guilt The Fear

Every single day I think of you. Not one day passes where you do not cross my mind. The name haunts me. Jake Winters. The title haunts me. The Golden Couple.

I feel the pain. The pain of losing you. I feel as if a part of me is gone. You told me that if I needed you, you would be here for me. If anything made me sad, you would be the shoulder for me to cry on. But you're no longer here. I will never hold your hand again. Have long walks while we laugh until our stomachs hurt again. Watch the sun go down again. You're gone. Gone.

But even more than that, I feel guilt. Guilt is a scary thing. I feel guilt whenever I see your parents. Whenever I find something of yours you left behind. Whenever. It's like a monster inside me, eating me up, shredding me to pieces, breaking me down. It's killing me.

Lastly, I feel fear. The fear that everything will catch up to me. The fear that I will feel a hundred times the amount of pain that I felt that day. The fear that I will suffer even more than I do now.

The pain, the guilt, the fear. They have caused me to build up diamond walls around me. I am no longer the same. I am strong. I am Brooke Summers.

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*Picture attached is Pyper America who plays as Brooke Summers! She's a NEXT model and is absolutely gorgeous.
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