This week is been a really big shitty, I'm really tired.
I feel a lot of different things... I feel myself alone, with no one by my side, it's not because I don't have friends its because I feel all alone on a secluded road. They both leave me by one side I'm really done with it, they are not for me, its not pretty at all it feels horrible being alone. If someone tells you I prefer to be alone its a big lie, nobody wants to be alone it's sad being alone, it's more sad trying to put all you're feelings under a big heavy rock called heart, but you know something ? It's not true that heavy rock, its not that heavy. It's like a crystal very easy to break, very very fragile. We all hide or feelings they are people of many kinds and there's people who knows how to hide them and people they break really easily.
I'm that kind of person who hides her feelings but sometimes that little fragile crystal breaks from nowhere and it hurts so much because you don't want anyone to know that you're a little broken bird, 'you need to be strong' they say, that's a lie I'm strong but sometimes there's no other option that I break. I've never felt okay, you know the typical message that someone sends you saying:
-hru?-
-I'm good wbu?-
That's a lie to I've never felt okay, it's true that I had pretty little moments being quite happy but they where really short. Or maybe I thought I was happy but I truly wasn't. I always felt broken I always felt secluded, but you know what I did?
I faked a very beautiful smile. Ofc a lie to
