TheWetOrchid

Rainy days 💦

Keep having these vivid sexual fantasies. Seems like I've lived them all before. And for some reason i can't shake them. Out the blue everyday they come & i find myself in a daze for a good 20-30mins watching these fantasies play out in my head. Wish i could say which one is my fav but if Ima be honest i would say they all get me to the finish line. I can't help to keep touching myself because i keep getting aroused 🤦🏾‍♀️ feel like it's becoming an addiction. If i could relive at least 2 of these moments i would be happy. His sex so amazing each time, please help me. I know what's to follow if we do it again. Craziness, from both ends. But we go great together really really great together. I always fight when we miss each other or when we're both sexually frustrated. Mostly both. I lust for other men but that's all it be. Lust. Never can follow through even when i really want to or when I'm right there, i back out. What if the sex is bad what if the head is bad? The connections aren't what I'm used to. Why is something that was so toxic to my life so thrilling and exciting and fun? We fell in love, Yea i said we because it was never one sided. Even tho it felt like it at times. We were both in it & enjoyed it. We just didn't know how to accept it. Sometimes he gave more, most of the time i gave more. We were never on the same page & if we ever was it never lasted for longer than a month.

What's wrong with us? Are we not capable of loving the other the way they deserve? Is it fear? Is it ignorance, is it past trauma? Whatever it is i hope we both can fix it and move past it. If i moved on i know he wouldn't be hurt but he never puts his self out there to me 100% & that i can no longer take. The sex is so amazing, the chemistry is out of this world. But the relationship is terrible. But some how were in love with each other, while also being mad at each other secretly but not so secret.

Friendly dick, lord how is hate it. But he's considered "the man" if he can pull multiple women. Let me be friendly & free with my body & suddenly ima thot, I'm looked at all different, I'm not like every other woman. But now u notice me? Now you see me now you're paying attention to me... why did it take for me being with another man for u to feel some type of emotion for me in ur chest? Is that anger you feel towards me or your own guilty conscience, knowing now something special u took for granted was treated well and caressed well by another. Not knowing if his hands touched me better than yours, not knowing if his lips kissed on me better than yours. Not knowing that his d*ck filled me up or do you wanna know if he stroked me over & over again until i climaxed better than you ever have... well that's something i can't tell you. But i did keep going back for more. Even tho he wasn't filling that gap in my chest i allowed him to fill up something else. & i would do it all over again. He made me feel wanted in a way i haven't felt in a long time. But deep down i know he's not mine. He belongs elsewhere. But for now he's keeping me company. I don't love him, but i do love the way he pleases me.

Every 3 hours it's a new flower blooming between my thighs. And every 3 hours it's new fantasy. Throbbing & being aroused bursting like a crazy rainy day. Boy how i wish for a nice rainy day. Laid up and cuddling and just embracing each other's presence. How i would love to deep throat him right now like ever before while riding his face while the rain drops hit the window seal so softly & the curtains are effortlessly clinging to the rods and covering the perfect amount of the window. We can see outside but outside can't see us. The lights turned down dimly and the tv playing in the background. He pulls me up and kisses me roughly but passionately. I push him off and go back to work. The way he taste... so chocolate. His thickness filling my mouth, fuckin my face. His moans and groans arousing me to the max. Wetness drippin down my leg. He's moving faster & faster gripping the back of my head. Him & my throat becoming best friends. Will this make him crazy? Most likely but i like a lil crazy. He pulls me up again and kisses me again this time throwing me on the bed. Caressing my inner thighs as he sucks on my breast, still kissing and sucking on my breast his hands make their way to my well moist orchid, bloomin waiting for him to enter me. He plays wit the pedal for a while teasing me and making my body beg him for more. He kisses his way down to my inviting box & licks every inch of it, his lips making love to my bottom lips all while his fingers slip their way in & out of my folds, making me squirm and ask for more. He licks and kisses on me until i leave my love traces on his lips. Lord he gives amazing head now i might become crazy. He comes up and let's me taste myself on his lips, kissing me and groping my breast he slips his thickness inside me, Stretching my folds and making my eyes roll back just a little and making my flower flood with water. I grip his face and pull him down to me & kiss him as he's stroking me, it's still raining out, it's picked up a bit. His strokes become a little more faster and a little more rough and passionate, my moans becoming louder by the min gripping my hips with one hand & holding my head with the other he strokes even faster now and deeper. He's making love to me & i make love to him back. His grunts & groans make me wetter, my moans & hip thrusts driving him to climax inside of me but he doesn't stop which makes my insides burst more. I push him down now I'm on top, I'm in control, i bend down and kiss him as his hands grip my ass tightly and smacks my ass while moving me up & down on his thickness, damn even on top he still in control. He move back & forth up & down until i feel his heart beat speed up. Knowing i have him close again he pulls me down and without hesitation sticks a finger in the back door while pushing me further on his thickness. Moving back & forth my moans become louder and his thrusts and strokes become deeper shock his self in me but passionately. He knows I'm almost close so he shoves his finger deeper in the back door and uses his legs to spread my legs further apart all while stroking me like no one has ever stroked me before. "Open your eyes, look at me while i fuck you" as i look into his eyes his stroke deeper now and his thickness growing more sends me over board & i climax on top of him. Lifeless. But filled with life at the same time. Man no one fucks me as good as he does. He looks at me & laughs knowing he just completed his mission but not knowing what he unleashed. I also didn't know what i had unleashed when it came to him. But we was about to find out.