One Shots - Matthew Gray Gubler / Spencer Reid

Can't help falling in love (Spencer Reid x Reader)

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Summary: After being hospitalized due to anthrax, Rossi sends him and (Y/N) to Hawaii, 'cos some sea breeze might be good for his lungs. Just one detail: Spencer loves (Y/N) and (Y/N) loves Spencer, but NEITHER OF THEM IS ACTING ON THEIR FEELINGS. A one-shot from my series "Do I wanna know." (you can totally read it if you haven't read the series yet) 

Warnings: Mention of boners, masturbation, cursing, frustration and that's it. 

A/N: Hello!!! I hope you are having a great day!! Look at me, updating again! I'm so excited to be writing again!! Thank you for reading!!  

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Spencer's point of view

I've never been a bad flyer. I don't have any kind of trouble spending most of my time on a plane. But today, I am terrified of this trip. I keep fidging on my seat as I open and close a book I can't even read, 'cos there's no way I can concentrate.

Sitting by my side, (Y/N) looks over the window and smiles sweetly as soon as she notices we are about to arrive at our destination: Hawaii.

- "Look, honey!! We are almost there!"- her eyes shine as she turns to me and invites me to lean in, closer to her, to take a better look at the island.

- "Cool"- I whisper and don't even pay attention to the view. All I can notice is her smell and the warmth that her body irradiates.

These are going to be the longest vacations of my life. And also, pretty much the first.

After I caught anthrax during a case, Rossi got us tickets to Hawaii. He and Hotch both agreed some sea breeze might be good for me, but they didn't want me to go alone. (Y/N) was more than happy to come along. It was basically a paid vacation to babysit me in Hawaii. I hate the beach; I don't like the sand, sun, or the drug-resistant bacteria spread by seagull feces. But she was so excited about the idea I couldn't say no. She wanted to help me get better, and I guess some fresh air and a few days away from work wouldn't hurt. I could always stay reading in my room.

- "We are gonna have so much fun, Batsy!"- (Y/N) whispers and turns to me, smiling brightly. I just stare into her eyes, feeling my heart rising inside my chest. I am crazy in love with my best friend, but I don't have a chance. She is way out of my league, and I know she only sees me as her best friend.

- "Yes, we will, Chipmunk,"- I reply, trying my best to smile too. But honestly, I'm freaking out.

(Y/N)'s point of view

I can't stop smiling! I've always wanted to come to Hawaii, and this trip is a dream come true. We've had nothing but first-class treatment ever since we got to the airport. A van picked us up and took us to the resort, put a drink in my hand, and ice tea in Spencer's, and led us to do our check-in.

- "Dr. Reid, Miss. (Y/L/N), here's the key to your suit. You will find everything you need to know about our resort in these flyers. And if there's anything you need, don't doubt to call me."- the host says and stares right into Spencer's eyes as she speaks. She is flirting with him, right here in front of me.

Ok, so I am not his girlfriend. We are not together. But... I hate it when people don't assume we are not a couple. Just don't tell anyone. I'm tired of all the teasing I get from the team and my friends. I'm just not ready to face anything in front of them. Not even in front of myself. But a part of me wishes this trip might be the chance to... I don't even know. Do I wanna flirt? Do I want him to want me? Do I want him?