𝐎𝐍𝐈𝐒𝐌 , 𝐊𝐀𝐑𝐋 𝐉𝐀𝐂𝐎𝐁𝐒

𝐓𝐖𝐄𝐋𝐕𝐄

I just wanna live in this world forever, cuz I'm afraid that living couldn't get any better. Started give up on the word forever. But then you gave up heaven so we could be together. Angel Baby, Troye Sivan.

(Idk if i would call it a trigger warning there is  a panic attack at the start of the chapter so, be mindful of that!)

My head begins to spin a little and the car is almost at Nikki's but the flashing lights are making my head spin even more. I have the urge to throw my phone out the window, burn it, smash it. Wilbur looks over at me, he see's the delusion I'm feeling and steps of the gas a little.

"You ok?" His voice is kind of blurry in a way. I don't remember the last time I had a panic attack, I dont think it was long ago. But it wasn't in front of anyone.

I was alone.

I feel my legs begin to violently shake, and my head is throbbing. My breathing picks up and I'm scrambling for something to hold on to.

I notice we pull up infront of the house and wilbur rushed out of car and opened my door. I wearily unplug my seatbelt and look at him. I grab his shoulders for balance.

"Call Karl." It sounds like I'm begging, but I'm not. I just need Karl. Wilbur gives a stern nod and takes me to the front door, knocking on it. A young boy stands in the door, his AirPods in. He takes one out and looks at me.

"Jack, get her to Her and Nikki's room ok?" Wilbur says. He grips my shoulder comfortingly. "I'll call Karl." He says, Jack gently leads me inside and calls for Nikki. His ringing in my ear, I see him smile as nikki takes me up the stares.

"Jesus, did you go out and drink again?" She exclaims worriedly, i shake my head as I find my bed and lay down in it.

My breathings picked up and I can feel a fever coming on.

"Nikki? Can you get me some cold water?" This time beg, she nods and rushes down the stairs. I feel so incompetent, I'm 21 and I can't even get myself a glass of cold water.

I'm shaking all over, my hand is tightly gripped onto my phone, even thought I want to let it go I can't seem too. I can't seem to let anything go, and neither can Ophelia so it seems. The door opens again and both Nikki and Wilbur pop there heads in. 

Nikki places the glass on the bed side table and wilbur sits on the edge of my bed, he hands me the phone and mouth the words Karl.

I suddenly relax and my phone falls onto the floor with a loud bang, I reach up to grab the phone and I can hear Karl's breathing from the other line. It sounds like his driving.

"Oak?" I hear his anxious voice come through the phone, my shoulders drop to my sides and my breathing begins to relax.

"Karl." I give a sigh of relief.

"Jesus, what happened? Wilbur told me your where having a panic attack." He scarmbles his words a little. I don't know what to tell him.

"It's Ophelia.: I confess, no point in hiding it. I mean she is his ex girlfriend so?

"Ophelia?!" He retorts, sounding shocked.

"What dose she want?" He continues, relaxing a little bit. I can feel the tense feeling crawl up the back of my spine again, and the tears well for some odd reason.

"You." My heart drops in that exact moment. I've really fallen in love with him and the cliché part of me can't bear to loose him, and the other part of me doesn't really know how to feel.

"Oakley." He says, his voice sounds like he knows what I'm thinking. I hold my breath.

"Princess. I'm not going to walk out and leave you, that's what I did to her." He giggles, making my heart bubble to the surface a little.