So I want to make this clear.
Over time, I realized I don't feel like a demiboy either. The main thing to describe this feeling was ❝I think I was meant to be straight, but not as a girl❞
I follow the rule in my religion to not cut my hair. But I felt like I want to cut my hair. I felt like I wanted a flat chest. I felt uncomfortable just looking like a girl.
I felt that, demiboy doesn't suit me either. Being just half boy and half genderless just.. didn't feel like me anymore. I felt that, I was born in the wrong body.
I felt that I was meant to be a boy. I thought I was transgender and decided to first do more research on it. I'm good with LGBTQIA+ but with transgender I wanted to know more so I could see if thats my actual gender.
The more I searched, the more I realized about myself.
The reason I called myself a demiboy was because I was starting to feel more like a boy but didn't want to identify as a girl. It was just half boy so I identified as a demiboy.
But now I realize that was just a part of myself. Now I've realized it was a part of me being a transboy.
You may think, what about my religion?
Sikhism isn't strict about its rules, wee Sikhs can choose which rules we want to follow and which rules we don't want to follow. If we followed a role all our life's but now don't wish to follow it, our religion allows us to leave that rule.
Thankfully LGBTQIA+ is very accepted in both Sikhism and the Sikh community. So I'm not going against my religion. In fact in Sikhism we believe that truth is the ultimate god, it includes being truthful about our gender and sexuality(althought not mentioned that often).
I wanted to explain in detail to help people better understand my gender.
I hope this explains it all
