It's Saturday today and i really don't know what to do, work is the only thing i'm focused on recently, it's fascinating to me that even though i'm just a secretary, i'm very stable financially, and this is all thanks to my boss, Kollin, now that i think of it, i'm the only person i've seen her get comfortable with, and when i mean comfortable, i mean a person who she actually takes advice that's not related to work. I mean she's a very strange lady, sometimes she's cold, sometimes silly, and sometimes she's flirty, from the three years i've worked with her i have never seen anyone date her or even serenade her, i don't even know if she's straight or not... Should i ask her? No! No! No! She's for work, and only for work besides asking about her sexuality invades her privacy. While daydreaming, my phone started to ring, it was my lady, Kollin, should I answer? Obviously i guess, she's my boss but it is Saturday though. I shook my thoughts away and answered the phone call, her voice immediately covered the entire room.
"Veronica, please send me the report for our 2021 plans, and while your at it please return my long sleeve back." She immediately ended the call after that.
I dont know why but every time i talk to her i feel butterflies in my stomach, it's weird. I folded her long sleeve and placed it into a brown paper bag, i wish i can keep it though, i also grabbed the binder that contains the files Ms. Kollin wants, and left my apartment.
I have now arrived at Ms. Kollin's Apartment, it looks expensive but livable at the same time, i'm currently sitting in her couch while she reads the files using her glasses, i feel like i'm in the principal's office after getting in trouble, am i in trouble Ms. Stevens? Are you gonna punish me? No. NO! JESUS, WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME? VERONICA STOP BEING HELLA WEIRD! But i don't think i've mentioned before that she's in her 30s and im in my 20s, 31 and 24 to be exact.
"Thank you for bringing this here on a Saturday darling, did i ruin any of your plans? If so, may I treat you to dinner?" She said while taking off her glasses.
"I actually didn't have any plans for today, and yes you can definitely treat me to dinner" I replied excitedly while giving a wide smile revealing to her that i love food. In fact, food is actually my love language.
We have arrived at the restaurant, Kollin is now drinking wine, circling the wine glass with every sip she took. She's specifically drinking red wine because in her own words "White wine is for pussies, and only for pussies". This dinner "date" makes me so happy, it somehow feels like were dating.
"Veronica, I'd say were pretty close right? I know that our relationship is only for work but have you ever had a boyfriend? Or even someone you like?" She said coldy, almost intimidating.
My heart started to beat faster and faster, why is she asking that? Does she like me? No, that's impossible.
"Actually yeah, i like someone very VERY much." I said trying to hint her that i like her but obviously failing.
"Good. Can you help me befriend or even date someone i like? I'm not really the type of person that's all lovey dovey but i think i like him, his name is Eros, Eros Beckham." She said but surprisingly with no emotions? My heart sank after she said that... It obviously hurts that the person you've been crushing on for 2 whole years has confessed to you that she likes someone else!? And the fact that he isn't even a woman crushes my heart even more because it means that my faith with her is sealed, i will always be her secretary, and ONLY her secretary, nothing more, nothing less.
I knew she didn't like me, I knew it from the bottom of my heart, but my stupid mind tricked me into thinking that we had a chance, that if i fight long enough then maybe i would have even a single percentage of her liking me, of her loving me, of us having an intimate relationship. My thoughts slowly invaded my mind and without thinking I immediately walked out of the restaurant without talking, crying, without showing any emotions. I did everything for her, everything. I missed so many good opportunities just to make sure she's always satisfied and the sad thing is... It's not even her fault and it's not like I want something in return, but...
I arrived home with tears dripping from my eyes, i feel empty. I opened my phone revealing a text message from "my darling <33" That's the nickname i gave her in my messages because that's what she calls me whenever she's in a good mood.
"Sorry, did I offend you in anyway? Please text me back." I wish she knows, I wish I could tell her, but i know that it will only ruin the relationship we have now.
"You did nothing wrong, I just got paranoid thinking I left my apartment door open, false alarm HAHAHAHA." I made a faint smile from the fake text I made, i'm laughable.
"Oh ok, thank god you got home safe. See you on Monday. :))" She immediately replied with a smiley face. It seemed that she gathered a lot of courage just to confess that to me, and there i go ruining it.
Eros was it? Eros Beckham, such a lucky man, it's okay, I can always be her best friend if i try hard enough. I'll try to be happy for her since she is my happiness, i slept while tears fell on my pillow.
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That was very painful to write not emotionally but mentally. Hope you enjoyed this chapter then, bye.
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Romance'I like you." was the phrase they could never tell each other, atleast not again.
