PLEASE TAKE CAUTION ⚠️
This chapter will contain;
Discussing insecurities (internal insecurities)
And Description of Self harm.
Stay safe!
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🌾 pov ;
Pepper runs away into a random direction and I stand there. "No! There's no way I'm going to let her get away with this!" I run into the woods after a minute or so and find pepper sitting on a log with her face stuffed in her hands. "P-pepper...? Are you ok?" I quickly sat down beside her and she looks over at me. "R-rye... I'm sorry! I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry! I'm so stupid! You hate me don't you?" She stuffs her face back in her hands and I feel my eyes water up. (a/n: that's so ooc I'm sorry.) "Pepper... I don't hate you. I'm completely honest. I want to get closer to you aswell, you seem like a really good person if I got to know you. It's just that... you still stole my shit once but now I'm over it. You gave it back. That's all that matters." I pull her into a hug and she sobs. "You can tell me what's been bothering you." She sniffles and starts speaking, "I-I... feel so stupid. Because I think I like you... not like that but... I just... like you and I'm supposed to hate you! It's my fault I feel this way...! I'm sorry rye... you can hate me." She sobs again and my eyes widen. The sun is setting, exposing the stars and the cold air. I hug her closer to me. "It's not your fault... that's natural. Every cookie feels feelings and sometimes they can't control it and it's ok. You're not stupid and I don't hate you ok? What about we go to my place or your place and we can hang out there for a while ok? If you're ok with that." She looks up at me and nods her head.
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TIME SKIP ; AT CHILI PEPPERS HOUSE
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🌶 pov ;
We made it to my house. "I need to use the restroom really quick. You can stay down here?" I walk down the hallway to the restroom and shut the door behind me. I glance at the mirror, that has medicine, makeup that I never use, and scissors inside of it.
Scissors.
I open the mirror cabnit and grab the scissors from the shelf. I stare down my wrists and sit down on the edge of my bathtub.
accident.
Oh no. Oh no. There's a knock on the bathroom door. "Are you ok in there...? Did something happen?" Rye speaks from the other side of the door. "Y-yeah... one se-second..." my voice shakes as I wrap my wrists up with bandages. I unlock and open the door and rye is looking around the kitchen. She realizes I'm there and smiles. We both lay on the couch for the rest of the night. She hugged me from behind as we both lay and we both fell asleep.
Together.
I'm... sleeping... and she's behind me.
No! I don't deserve this!
I don't deserve her!
She's so perfect.
And I'm everything but perfect.
She deserves better.
I'm so sorry rye.
I love you.
