In recognition of Mental Health Week, I participated in this mental health awareness event and I thought I should share well my speech/poem with the rest of the world so I'm hoping to speak to more hearts and possibly reach out "to the girl who hides her pain behind her smile".
I'm hoping to create a safe space where we don't have to our pain but release all that pain and be there for each other.
Reminder for the day: Hold on just a bit longer, please it does get better
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𝒯𝑜 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝑔𝒾𝓇𝓁 𝓌𝒽𝑜 𝒽𝒾𝒹𝑒𝓈 𝒽𝑒𝓇 𝓅𝒶𝒾𝓃 𝒷𝑒𝒽𝒾𝓃𝒹 𝒽𝑒𝓇 𝓈𝓂𝒾𝓁𝑒
She smiles everyday but she hurts.
She laughs everyday but she's crying inside.
She tries to share happiness to others, an emotion she herself fails to experience.
Each day goes by, and no one ponders to really notice her drifting away into a void of emptiness.
She wasn't always like this, she used to smile carefreely.
Her laugh was once a beam of happiness that soothed anyone who heard it,
It wasn't always a broken laugh, her laughter once healed hearts.
But slowly she drifted away, her eyes never shone as brightly, her laughter slowly faded, and her bright energy slowly dulled down.
She is losing herself but there is no one to save her.
She cries out for someone to save her, but she is drowned out by her own monsters.
Alone she faces her monsters, their whispers playing in her mind on repeat.
"You are unwanted"
"you are alone"
"no one loves you"
"no one wants you here"
"maybe everyone's lives would be so much better without you here."
Gradually she loses herself to her inner demons,
She ends up feeling like she has no one and she's alone,
She feels unwanted, she feels worthless but most of all...
She is scared because no one understands what she is going through and she herself doesn't understand what is wrong nor can she explain it.
As the clock ticks, the more she turns into an empty shell.
She's closed off from the world, but she smiles so she is fine right?
She has lost the shine in her smile, but she laughs so she's still fine, right?
She hides in the shadows, but you still see her so she's fine, right?
She's not as excited or energetic but she still hangs out with her friends so she's still fine, right?
She's fine as long as she shows you that she's fine, She's fine as long as she says she is.
But is she really, okay?
And if she can't help herself out of the dark hole, she has found herself in will there be someone to help her out in time?
The answer to that, well she doesn't know it yet because all she can do is hope that someone notices, someone helps her.
But she really hopes that by the time everyone notices it's not too late for her.
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I wrote about the girl who hides her pain behind her smile as a way to possibly reach out to people going through the same struggles, and I know they are people like her, people who relate to her. I also know how hard of a time it is trying to hold on to the light whilst an endless dark whorl pulls you away and it is a very confusing time especially when you are facing this all on your own. Losing yourself to this dark void can really destroy you, your relationships and affect the people around you because you are fighting your own inner demons, but you end up fighting with everyone else or yourself.
No matter what it's going to be a tough journey but to "the girl hiding her pain behind her smile", please hang on just a bit longer. It won't be easy, but you will get through this, it will be hard and sometimes you will feel like giving in to those voices but please hang in there just a bit longer. I know the voices in your head have become your worst enemy, but I will be you're your friend. I will be the person who holds your hand as you face your monsters, I will be the light at the end of the darkness, I will be there every step of the way till you can stand alone.
But I can assure you it won't be easy and the first thing you can do is be prepared to try everything under the sun, not everything will work out for you, so you have the find what works out for you. The second step is accepting and trusting people to help you, this is not a battle you have to fight yourself and you cannot overcome it yourself. Find someone you trust and are comfortable to talk with be it your best friend, you parents or family as long as it is someone who will have your best interests at heart. Getting rid of these negative voices, thoughts and feelings in your head is not going to be easy simple steps like finding a way to release thoughts will do you more good than bad. Be it writing them down or finding a hobby that will help you keep your inner demons at bay. The next step is figuring out what exactly is contributing to these feelings it could be the company you hang out with or maybe any event that has recently impacted you, sometimes letting go of what is weighing you down is the best step you can take for yourself. Set goals for yourself, our minds have the power to be our worst enemies so possibly try channelling your negative thoughts into positive thoughts. It's not going to be an easy journey, but the first step is coming to terms that you are not okay, You cannot do this on your own and you do need help.
The lyrics in Standing with you by Guy Sebastian, I feel like they are a perfect anthem to helping or giving courage to "the girl who hides her pain behind her smile".
'Cause I'm standing with you tonight
Yeah I will be that voice in your ear
Quietly destroying your fear
I hope we will all be strength to "the girl hiding her pain behind her smile" and we will stand by them till they win their inner battle.
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"Love is pain. You can't have one without the other. There's no picking and choosing experiences. The good comes with the bad."
― Shyla Colt,
YOU ARE READING
The Love In Your Eyes
Teen Fiction"I know you feel it too " He slowly walks towards me... "It's also pulling you towards me no matter how much you fight it" My back hits the wall... "I won't sit back and pretend I don't want you cuore mio when you're all I want" My breathing becomes...
