All I ask

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Her parents held her hand as they sobbed. They heard the machine's beep slowly fade. Their poor child was gone. What could they ever do to bring them back?

Her parents understood that they had lost their child. No, they had lost their child from long ago when they let go of her hand. When she had to go up on her own. They had only then understood what they could have done better.

Another figure stood outside. Their eyes filled with crystal-like tears leaving behind stains on their face. She bit her lip as she choked back her sobs. As much as Alice wanted to be in that room, she couldn't. She didn't believe she deserved to be.

Now all that was left was the what if's, the what could have prevented this, and what should be done now.

Many questions lie in the past, future, and present. In all which still coherently suffer from pain.

From the people who were there at the night, it happened. There was a memory that would haunt them forever. Words tend to carry a lot of weight for many people. Everything hurts differently for someone and not everyone could be learned overnight. It takes time to understand one another.

My parents made the mistake of letting me raise myself. I couldn't ever find a secure place to ever showcase how I felt. All I wanted was a sense of peace, purpose, and protection.

How much sorrow did I have to take for this outcome? Even if we found answers what difference does it make?

People are now plagued to remember that things could have gone differently. How could they have known? It wasn't like the signs could be obvious and if they were? What could have been changed? Things in life are hard and everyone goes through some sort of action that brings them closer to the edge. 

For me, I had to learn to cope with the loss of a childhood, a friend, and a purpose. 

Ivan spends his time on probation as he turned himself in with all of his crimes. He had confessed that he might have driven the girl to her death. However, it was deemed as a suicide so he wasn't harshly punished. 

People will move on from death but there is this effect in which people tend to think about how things could have been prevented. Things could change for the better or for the worse. Still, there will always be some sort of guilt or feeling where it shall be hidden deeply somewhere.