Day 11

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Today is the worst day ever. I am so sad. Today Kyle said out loud that he likes Lucy to Max, one of my friends in our room. I heard it with my own ears. All I ever known that he likes Treasa. But Treasa is usually popular among boys and I thought it was not real. And I felt safe. But everything has changed. Lucy is my best friend. How can she be the one he likes? I have been so sad in my life because my parents left me. But this is more than that.  It's not the same feeling. I feel jealous of Lucy although she is my best friend. I feel like it's my fault to not let anyone know my love on him. :'(:'(

It's 2 a.m. Feeling like I just lost a friend.  Hoping he knows it's not easy, easy for me. I can't stand this. He is my first love.*

She can't see the way his eyes that light up when he smile. She will never notice how he stop and stare whenever  she walks by. And he can't see me wanting him the way he wants her. He's just everything to me. I just wanna show him. She don't even know he likes her. She never gonna love him like I want to. And he just see right through me. If he only knew me, we could be a beautiful, miracle, unbelievable in stead of just invisible. All I think about is how to make him think of me. Everything that we could be.

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