30 Reason's To Die: xxstoptryingxx's One Shot Contest

It's All My Fault

Cody's POV:

Cath Lennings is dead.

All because of me.

I'll be honest here. I cried and cried because Cath is dead and not only is she dead no... it was also my fault.

I made a freaking bet with Jax and that made her feel bad about herself, gave her insecurities. Yeah it's stupid of me to even have made that bet. Why did I do it? I just wanted to win the damn bet.

I told Jax, me and her did it. I wanted to win that bet soo badly that I didn't even think about her own feelings, and how it would affect her.

Well it did and now she's six feet under. And I wish she wasn't. She didn't deserve to be there. To late now, isn't it.

Jax wouldn't of called her those things if I just told him the honest truth, but that would have made me a wuss so I told him we did it and now look at how things turned out.

Jax calling her a fat slut.

Cath being bulimic.

Cath cutting herself. Yes I noticed the way she was covering her arms whenever she was at school. I also noticed the bandage that she always had wrapped around her wrist under the long sleeve baggy clothes she wore.

Brittany cyber bullying her.

Derek not being friends with her.

And of course, last but not least... Cath killing herself.

I ruined her.

We all did.

And now someone has lost a daughter, a sister and a friend.

You were a good person and you didn't deserve any of the bullshit that happened to you.

I'm sorry Cath. I really am, and if I could take back what I did back then I would. I really didn't think it would turn out like this and I am really really sorry.

And I know, I know a thousand sorrys will never make up for what I did. But I am truly and unforgivably sorry.

I'll always remember you and this letter says soo soo much. It reminds me of the consequences of my actions and how they affect other people.

I'm soo sorry Cath. I really am.

I can feel my eyes watering up again but I won't let them fall Cath. I won't.

Rest In Peace Cath. Cause you at least deserve that.