My Story

Growth

October 21st, 2021

I got hurt again 

I allowed myself to fall and that's precisely what happened

I'm lying on the floor with a cold heart

I want to believe that love is real

I just find it hard to trust anyone enough to get there

I was left behind with no explanation 

I got very sick after quitting my job and trying to start a new one

I got hacked through the one platform I use to communicate with everyone

I'm unable to start the job I got and I have so many bills to pay

It really feels like the world is after me.

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October 25th, 2022

Timeskip? One year later.

I fell

like always I got back up with the help of the people around me

for a long time, I assumed I would be on my own

I learned pretty quickly that I just needed to start loving myself before I could add someone to my struggles

I had my off days

there were days I felt like I was going to give up

days I felt were a waste of time

I was stuck in a loop of a routine I didn't enjoy

August rolled around and everything changed

an old friend became something more after just a week

2 months later and I've fallen hard

the sheer amount of commitment this relationship shows gives me strength 

distance is still an obstacle but after a month we fought and won against it

I see him in December and we talk every day

I've started a new job that seems a lot better than the one I had

I'm sure I'll still have my days where I just don't know what to do in life but at least I know I'm not alone

I have my friends, my family, and my love.