Sparks Fly 2

Chapter 3: letting it out

Isabella's P.O.V

another pointless day of my life. for once in my life, I actually woke up comfortable in bed and thank god it's Saturday. I sat in bed as i smelled Teresa's cooking. i checked my phone to see a text from Brendan letting me know about later on; i really don't wanna go. if i had to choose between seeing them again or wrapping a plastic bag around my neck so that I'd stop breathing, I would choose the dying one.

I got out of bed and did my morning routine then made my way down stairs. I see Teresa cooking break fast or in this case, eggs and bacon.

Teresa:"Morning sunshine, sleep well?"

Isabella:"better than you think."

Teresa:"That's good, so...Brendan told me about how you too are going to see them."

She said as she served my plate and sat across from me to eat her plate. I picked up my fork and started playing around with my food.

Isabella:"You don't know how hard it is...to say no to a friend."

Teresa:"You really don't wanna go do you? why is that?"

Isabella:"Are you kidding? it's been two fucking years and they don't even bother to check on how I'm doing. I just don't want to deal with them any more."

Teresa:"Bells-"

Isabella:"Bella."

Teresa:"Same thing, any ways, like I was saying, I know the real you. and the real you would be scared of needles. would be shy all the time. would wear emo cute clothing and now it's like....you're a bad ass biker chick."

I put down my fork as I crossed my arms. I starred at my plate without blinking as i hear her sigh and wipe her mouth with a napkin.

Teresa:"Bella... you know I'm here for you. and not to sound like a mom or anything but I'm worried about you. I think...I think it's good to...you know...see them again."

I made eye contact with her as i felt my blood boil with anger. I felt anger and sadness come over me as she stated the fact that I had to see them again whether I'd like it or not.

Isabella:"No Teresa. I never want to see them again! Why can't all of you just understand that!? it's my choice! my decision! i don't want any one telling me what to do!"

I said as i stormed out of the house as i hear Teresa calling my name. I ran and ran as I stopped at a park and cried under a tree. I looked up as I realized that this was where Gerard and I first kissed. I placed my hands on my forehead as I started sobbing uncontrollably. memories flooded through my mind making me feel pain. all the crying that I've been trying to hold in for 2 years is finally coming out.

I stood up as I sniffed and tried making the tears stop falling but it was impossible. I started making my way out of the park as I stumbled while walking. Why did this happen to me? why? All I did as run away from home a few days and I get this in return. I wiped the tear stains off my cheek as my phone vibrated, I checked the caller ID to see that it was Brendan.

Isabella:"Hey."

Brendan:"Hey!!! just wanted to remind you...again."

Isabella:"Brendan I'm not going."

Brendan:"Of course you are, no if's, buts or maybe's."

Isabella:"look...i get that trying to help me..a-and I'm thankful for that....but I've made....my final decision."

Brendan:"Isabella are you okay?...you were crying weren't you?"

I pulled the phone away from my ear without hanging up and cried quietly as I sniffed and put the phone back next to my ear.

Isabella:"Brendan i got to go."

Brendan:"You're not gonna tell me what's wrong?"

Isabella:"goodbye"

I said and hanged up without listening to what he said. I found a bench on the side walk and sat down as I curled up in a ball and cried silently and fell asleep