Nobody cares.
Nobody gives a crap.
Not my parents, not the people in elementary, not my "friends" if they really say so, and not you.
All they know is "oh, (me)? Yeah she's really negative and sensitive, it's best to ignore"
I'm tired.
I know I'm a burden of a friend. I know I'm more of a punishment than a blessing here. The most useful thing I could do is find a way to end it. Then I'll rid people of the dark shadows that my vents and rants bring, as well as free them from my uselessness.
Why would anyone want to be my friend or care? I cry too much and too easily. I'm ugly. I'm dumb. I can't do anything right. I'm never consistently there. People probably think this is all fake. I'm the outcast nobody wants. I'm just a ghost, except that less and less people can see me and hear my cries.
I'm so life-tired. I want to forever sleep. I want to die.
Really though. I try so so so hard to see that light at the end of the tunnel but it's so hard and it's only getting harder.
Don't lie to me. I'm not your FRIEND. I'm just your ACQUAINTANCE. You don't care. You'd only be sad when I'm gone because death is sad. If I didn't talk for a month or more, you'd forget about me. You cringe at me. You wish you never met me after knowing about my problems. If I were bleeding out in front of you, you'd only get help because it's INSTINCT because it's 'RIGHT', not because you CARE. If you've only known me online and we met, you'd.ignore me too.
ADMIT IT. THERE'S NOTHING TO BE DONE.
I'm so tired. It's so cold and lonely. It's like everyone left me on the peak of the mountain to die and decay, only stopping to talk to feed me a little and talk,.but only to give me lies.
Just stop.
Stop giving me false hope. Don't lie to me.
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darker days
Fanfictionc/w: probably common mentions of s/h, homophobia, gore, su1c1d3, abu53, p3d0s, and overall negative energy. If you wish to be happy, please exit this book. Because I sure am not happy. Mature tag Is.on for above reason.
