PARITYAG : The story of Aadyansh (On Hold)

Guilty

“Guilt is perhaps the most painful companion of death because what hurts the more at the feeling of being wrong is the feeling of realization of guilt.”
Pahal who was running from Kashyap’s hand somehow escaped  from his clutches by throwing dust  in  his eyes. And managed to reach at the edge of Aadampura where Sriansh was eagerly waiting for him. “Kha rah gya tha tu? Mai kab se intezar kar rha tha.” Asked Sriansh from Pahal with concern. In return Pahal uttered while panting “Btata hu bad me. Chal phle yha se chlte h”. Sriansh nodded his head and they both left Aadampura in haste.
In Aadampura:
Kashyap who was looking for Pahal anxiously mumbled to himself “Lagta h bhag gya, kayr. Koi baat nhi Sultangadh me to wo dono mil hi jayenge ”. Kashyap soon left the place and returned to their home (the hut). He found the hut empty. He tried to find Aadyshri but he got unsuccessful in his attempt of finding her. A sudden wave of anxiety and negativity ran through his spine thus he started inquiring people about her.  In the rush he got bumped to that old lady. “Mujhe maaf kijiega  maine apko dekha nhi” apologized Kashyap. The old lady replied “koi baat nhi” and turned to left the place when Kashyap stopped him. The old lady turned and gave him a frown look and said “Are bola na koi baat nhi. Jisko dekho subh se mujhe presan kar rkha h”. “Nhi nhi, mai apse ye puchna chahta tha ki kya apne rajku….mera mflb Vashisht dew ko khi dekha?” asked Kashyap. “Kon whi jo tumhara sathi h?” asked the old lady while giving a suspicious look. In agreement Kashyap nodded. “Wo abhi tak aya nhi kya phadi ilake se? Mujhe lga itni der ho gyi hai to aa gya hoga.”said the lady while keeping her fingers on her chin. “Matlb? Mai kuch smjha nhi?” asked Kashyap while being confused and curious. “Are wo subh kisi ldke ne bola mujhe ki mere bete ko kuch log pkd ke le gye. To mai yha Vashisht dew se madad mangne ayi ki koi mere bete ko marne k lie Aadampura ke chhor par phadi ilake me le gya h. To wo chla gya. Fir jab mai rote rote ayi apne ghr to pta chla ki mera beta apne kaka ke sath ghumne nikla tha. Bas thode der phle hi aya wo. Mujhe lga ki mera beta wha nhi mila hoga use to wo yha waps laut aya hoga.” Replied that lady. Kashyap got dumbstrucked after hearing this. Without wasting any time he headed towards the edge of the mountain.
Meanwhile in the way towards Sultangadh:
Sriansh and Pahal were heading towards Sultangadh on their horses. It was vesicular  time. The sunset was looking like sun's fairy kiss to the night. The creamisicle color of sky and the cool breeze was given a perfectly combo in the dusk time. There was a deserted area and a ping was there between them which was soon broken by a sentence “Tumne btaya nhi, kya hua?”. On which Pahal answered “Haa, wo Jo Guru h use hmari sacchai pta chl gyi ki hm Sultangadh ke maharaj k lie kam krte h. Islie wo mera piccha kar rha tha”. Sriansh replied “Haa, mujhe v pta chla jab wo Vashisht dew ne mujhe….ab.…aa..chodo”. “Kya hua Sriansh? Tune Vashisht dew ko mar to diya h na? Hmara kam pura to ho gya na?”asked Pahal. While listening these sentences once again Sriansh remembered the incident that took place a few hours ago. The way the two of them faced and fought against the soldiers together, the way Vashisht dew had saved him, the way he pulled him out of the throes of death and the way he ditched him and threw him in the ditch. “Bol na kya hua wha pe?” these words brought him out of his chained and deepest thoughts. “Ha…ha sab ho gya” replied Sriansh. “Acha? Mujhe to nhi lgta. Tab se dekh rha hu tu kisi soch me duba h. Kya hua h?” asked Pahal while furrowing his eyebrows and getting off from his horse. Sriansh too got off from his horse. “Maine use mar to diya h. Lekin hmne jesi yojna bnayi thi, wo wese nhi mra” said Sriansh. “Matlab?”asked Pahal while being confused. Sriansh then narrated him the whole story that how Mughals ditched them and how Sriansh and Vashisht dew fought, how he saved his life and Sriansh pushed him in the ditch from the cliff. After conveying the whole story Pahal got dumbstrucked and he tried to settle himself from the recent news. And after that just one sentence uttered from his mouth “Usne teri jan bachayi aur tune use maar diya?”. Sriansh stared towards Pahal with confusion and replied “Haa, kyuki yhi to tay hua tha na phle se? Hme use marna tha to mar diya. Ab chahe wo kisi v tarah mre.”. “Haa, lekin usne teri jan bachayi thi” exclaimed Pahal. On which Sriansh said with irritated face “Haa to isme itni bdi baat kya h? ” and while controlling his anger and with a sigh he continued “Dekh, hme use marna tha aur hmara kam pura hua. Aur wse v tu v to yhi chahta tha ki hm use jald se jald mar k yha se nikal jaye”. On this Pahal shouted on him with disappointment “Are dimag khrab h kya tera? Kya mtlb h tera is bat se ki usne teri jan bachayi isme ko bdi baat nhi h? Haa? Are mere liye ye bhut bdi baat h. Kyuki mera ek hi pariwar h aur wo tu h” and with teary eyes he continued “Shayd tujhe apni jan ki kimat nhi pta h lekin mujhe pta h kyuki hm dono kho chuke h apne pariwar ko. Mere pas bs ek tu hi h. Are hme to uska ehsan man na chahiye, use dhanywad bolna chahiye tha. Aur tune kya kiya? MAR DIYA USE.JABKI USNE JAN BACHAYI TERI. Ha mai manta hu ki mai v ye chahta tha ki wo mar jaye taki hmara kam pura ho lekin sirf tab tak jab tak usne teri jan na bchayi thi. Soch Sriansh agr…agr…agr..tujhe kuch ho gya hota, tu us khayi se gir gya hota to mai kya krta ? Mai to jite ji mar jata. Tu hi bta agr us ne mujhe bachaya hota to kya tab v tu use ese hi maar deta? Haa? Tujhe halka sa v pacchtawa nhi ho rha h kya uske sath esa kar ke? Haa?, USNE TUJHE BACHAYA AUR TUNE USE HI KAYRO KI TARAH DHOKHE SE MAR DIYA? Khi esa to nhi ki BURE BAN NE KA NATAK KRTE KRTE TU SACHME BURA BAN CHUKA HAI? TUJHE BURA NHI LAG RHA?”. And he started sobbing. Sriansh who was listening all this while being numb closed his eyes to calm himself. While closing his eyes a drop of tear rolled down on his cheeks. He immediately opened his eyes and replied while shouting “Haa, bura bn gya hu mai. Koi afsos nhi ho rha h mujhe use maar ke. Aur kuch jan na chahte ho? Sun na chahte ho?”. “Nhi, jo sun na tha wo sun liya” replied Pahal with disappointment.
At Aadampura in the hut :
Kashyap was sitting beside Aadyshri. She was laid on a bedsheet on the ground. Her eyes were closed and a lot of bruises and wounds were there on her body. Kashyap was applying ointments on her wound and weeping. “Ye kya ho gya apke sath rajkumari? Mujhe apko akela chodna hi nhi chahiye tha.” And while saying so he held his forehead with both of his hands. He closed his eyes and a flash of dark incident gone through his mind that took place an hour ago.
Flashback:
Kashyap reached near the cliff and started finding Aadyshri and calling her. “Vashisht dew ….. Vashisht dew ”. At a point suddenly he heard a voice which dragged his attention towards the ditch “Guru Kashyap ”. He immediately started looking sharply towards the bitch. And what he saw was unbelievable and ground sliding under his feet view for him. Aadyshri was hanging in the ditch while holding some bushes and a branch of creeping tree. Her head was hell bleeding and seemed like she was not in her senses completely. She was feeling dizzy and little subconscious. It seemed like the only part of her senses that were working were got engaged in saving herself from falling down. Kashyap somehow managed himself to save her from there. But she had already bleed a lot.
Flashback ends.
With these trances  he immediately opened his eyes with a jerk and again started crying. After seeing his so called and assumed daughter and student  he sworn to himself “Mai kasm khata hu ki jinhone apki esi halat ki h mai unhe nhi chodunga.  Bas ek bar ap thik ho jaye fir mai unhe btaunga ki Kashyap se dushmani mol lene ka kya anjam hota h”.
Meanwhile in Sultangadh:
Sriansh and Pahal entered in the Palace. Maharaja Kanush and Thilak kumar welcomed them. Pahal who was irritated and disappointed left for his room while ignoring everyone. “Aur btao Kesa rha sb? Wse hme khabar to mil hi gyi thi ki tumlogo ne Vashisht dew ko mar diya ” said Thilak kumar while greeting him. Sriansh who was standing there like a deaf nodded his head and faked smile. “Are hmne kuch pucha h Sriansh. Kesa rha sb?” repeated Thilak kumar. Sriansh regained his senses and came back to reality and replied “Ha…ha..sab thik rha. Kam thoda muskil tha par….” And without giving any opportunity to Thilak kumar to ask something further he also left for his room by excusing that he’s tired. “Thilak Kumar kam ho gya h na?” asked Maharaja Kanush. “Ji Maharaja , khabr pkki h. Hmne jo sainik inke upr 24 ghnte nazar rakhne k lie bheje the usne is bat ki pukhti di h. Usne khud dekha tha Sriansh ko Vashisht dew ko khayi me dhkka dete huye.”. Maharaja Kanush nodded his head and ordered “Thik h, to dusre kam ki tyyari Suri kar do. Pta h na hmare wo khas mehman jada din intezar nhi krenge. Unka kam jald se jald ho jana chahiye”. Thilak Kumar nodded and left.
In Sriansh’s room.
Sriansh was lied on his bed. He had closed his eyes shut and thinking about all those incidents that took place in Aadampura. An expression of seriousness and sadness was clearly visible on his face. But he was totally ignoring it. He was not ready to agree that he was feeling guilty but somewhere in his heart he knew that he is feeling it. Suddenly he remembered the day when he met Vashisht dew and saw his eyes which was very close to him. He thought  “Kya tha un ankho me jo mujhe itna acha lgta tha?”. Actually it was not the shape, color or size of her eyes that was actually attracting him. It was something else. Something very deep. It was not about the appearance. He then thought about how Vashisht dew was helping others even though he was injured, and how he had figured out that he was missing his mother. The way Vashisht dew had sent a lady so that she can feed him without even taking any credit. He remembered how he had tried to spoil her food,lied her,left her while fighting and ditched her. With these non stopping chain of thoughts he opened his eyes with a jerk and sat on the bed. “Mene kuch galat nhi kiya.” he kept repeating these words to comfort himself for some time. Suddenly Pahal’s words started ranging in his ears “MAR DIYA USE.JABKI USNE JAN BACHAYI TERI. USNE TUJHE BACHAYA AUR TUNE USE HI KAYRO KI TARAH DHOKHE SE MAR DIYA? Khi esa to nhi ki BURE BAN NE KA NATAK KRTE KRTE TU SACHME BURA BAN CHUKA HAI? TUJHE BURA NHI LAG RHA?”. He kept his palms on his ears but still these words were ringing in his ears continuously. “Nhi nhi mene kuch ni kiya. Mai bura nhi hu” he was continuously saying these words to defend himself. The flashes of past incidents and his evil acts were continuously running in front of his eyes. These things were making him restless. Sweat beads were there on all over his face and he was panting hard. He started crying and joined his hands. “Mujhe maf kardo , mai janta hu glti ki hai maine” he said to none. He was alone in his room. He was panicking so hard and after a minute sleep engulfed him in his arms. He slept on the floor itself.
“Sriansh….Sriansh….kha ho beta. Dekho mai 10 tak ginni krungi. Giggling of a kid. Mai janti hu ye tum hi ho idhar aao. Maa, maa. Bhut  badmash ho gye ho. Giggling sounds of a kid. Sriansh tune use kyu mara beta. Maa mene nhi , maa glti ho gyi maaf krde. Achaa? Maf kardu. Maine kya tujhe yhi sikhaya h? Maine hmesa tujhe yhi sikhaya tha ki acha insan ban . Kv bura kam mt kr. Logo ki madad kar. Lekin tune kya kia? Tune whi kia jo tere baba ne tujhe sikhaya tha. Bura ban na. Is se pta chl gya ki tu apne maa jesa nhi apne baba jesa ban gya. Shayd mujhme hi kuch galat tha jo tu apne baba jesa ban gya. Soch usne teri kitni madad ki ,logo ki kitni madad ki , teri jan bachayi aur tune kya kiya beta? Maa nhi mai….. Mai jaa rhi hu ”.
“Maaaa” shouted Sriansh while waking up from his nightmare. He was sweating hard and panting. It took him few minutes to understand that it was just a nightmare. Then he again started crying realizing his mistakes. “Mai bura nhi hu. Galti ho gyi mujhse, maaf kardo mujhe. Mujhe pta h meri is galti ka koi praschit nhi h”. Then he started sobbing hard. He folded his knees and brought it near his chest and started crying badly.