Blue butterfly >¡< [ Jayhoon ] >¡< Enhypen

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Through the time Jay had stayed there he succeed to get to know Sunghoon better, he also noticed a fact about Sunghoon that he is a very depressed person.

There were moments where his body would go numb and he would be out of this life.
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He had his own fragile side, he wasn't always strong as he pretend to be ,there were times where he would become like a kid he would even need someone to put the spon in his hand and help him eat or he won't succeed alone.
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Guess that's the karma for slaughtering others, you will slowly lose yourself lose control on your senses, cause it's not easy to end someone else's life without feeling anything back.
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They had dinner together
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Sunghoon was the one who cooked for both of them as usual.
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Jay started feeling sleepy again the same thing happened to him everytime he had his dinner meal, he should ask Sunghoon what does he put as ingredients in their food and why he is the only one affected by it.

Despite knowing that he still wanted to stay, he felt he owe him for saving his expensive life.
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"You are not thinking of setting me free any soon are you ?" Jay blurted suddenly.

Sunghoon posed his spoon on his plate "You are ungrateful, I saved your life and all you want to do is to run away from me " that's his only reason
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Saving his life ! And taking other's. He avoided mentioning about the stain of blood on his sleeve when he washed it from last night he is too scared to open the subject, even if his thoughts are on point Jay doesn't want to hear the truth yet.
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"Where is your family? " Jay liked questioning him about his life, he did it everytime before he fall asleep on the chair
"Why no body visit you? "
"Don't you have a girlfriend neither?"
Even though Sunghoon did never answer them.
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"I don't have anyone". Sunghoon spoke this time, in a sad tone and Jay felt it , they are the same they don't have anyone 'But themselves'.

"But.." he stood up and pointed at the photo that was disturbing him the whole day" the one hanged above the TV "

"They are all dead to me".

Jay sat again on the chair
He tented his chance again with a nother question "how olde are you ?"
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"23 "They are the same age
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"My parents wanted me to marry at this age " sunghoon kept the conversation on this time, he let a smile appear on his lips.

Jay was listening

"Are you going to ?"
"Yes "

"But...you said you didn't have anyone in your life "
"I have now " his response was quick
Sunghoon's hand moved up covering Jay's which was resting on the table.

Jay didn't mind to ask again, it was easy to guess from his look, he meant him by it. "You should go and sleep"
Jay pulled his hand and tried to get up but soon as he was on his feet he felt dizzy.

The drug affect was spreading in his whole body
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Jay tried to walk but fell to the front
Sunghoon quickly catched him in his arms
"I will help you"
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He let him lie down on the bed

"I don't want to sleep, why do you have to make me " Jay whined
"I am sorry "
"I won'taccept it"

"...I think I know how I should apologize "
Jay stopped moving observing what he was about to do before his eyes closed on their own .
Sunghoon leaned on his face " I always wanted to do this with you from the first day we met" then he laied his lips on jays.
he kissed him.
Then pulled away to whispere something next to his lips
'I am sorry.. I will keep you as a prisoner untill I know why my brother is chasing after you' then kissed him again.
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The kiss sure occupied Jay's mind for a while untill he pulled away by himself and turned to his side closing his eyes to sleep.
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'Kissing this guy will for sure become a passion soon 'Sunghoon thought.
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He pulled his body away from.

'Sunghoon what the hell are you doing
What do you want from this boy exactly' Sunghoon was losing his mind after the kiss.

He was trained to be loyal to his brother.
But now by Jay's presence his thoughts all changed, He have alot of thoughts about how to talk to Jay how to act infront of him how to protect him, they were all about Jay.

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The next day when Jay woke up, he recalled everything from the night before, he furrowed his brows, Sunghoon told him something about his brother
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He quickly stood up.
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Searching for Sunghoon in the house but he wasn't found anywhere.
He had also left the door open !
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Is he giving him the way to escape finaly ?
But Jay can't go back now he needed answers to his questions plus he is not ready he doesn't want to go back to his old life.
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Sunghoon didn't want to talk and avoided the curious Jay most for the day by going out .
He doesn't want Jay to know his ugly truth, who is he and the inhuman things he did and still does with a cold heart.
He want to keep his image as a savior in jay's eyes, he like the fact Jay is thankful to him and want to do things in return to pay him back.
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Jay's innocent smil made him feel ashamed it reminded him how awful as a human he is, he doesn't believe he had planned to cut this person buddy into small pieces and not just this he had already decided the place he was going to burry him in, without getting to know, the one his heart was waiting for all this time، was Jay.
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