IN MY HEAD
Have you ever been trapped stuck?
Well I am
Stuck in my own head
Thoughts
Depression
The ocd
Its killing me
I'm so alone
No one knows
To me its my suffering in silence
I numb the pain
Self harm is my outlet
Its hard stopping
I'm afraid I can't control it
My mind races scattered thinking constantly fighting within myself
I'm tired all the time
With everything how I feel I don't like leaving my home
I can't stand big crowds
I only go out to get groceries
But I hate it
I can't even get enough strength to work
I cry in silence
I pray god to help me
Ease my pain
Take me away
The fights within my head
I don't wanna end I want to be with my son and love ones
But I also wanna disappear
I hate this
I hate fighting
I hate being trapped
Stuck in my head
All the thought
They won't go away
I just want quiet
I miss laughing smiling
One day
Tell then
I'm trapped
10.22.21 cjscb
