The Diary Swap

Book 9

"Ms Vanderbilt, you're the only person, who hasn't read," I smiled gently at her, making her blush.

"Yes,"

"So are you going to?"

"Y... yes sorry," she stuttered and got up, holding my diary.

"Start when you're ready,"

"Dear diary,

This challenge is the best idea I've had down here. I'm so utterly fed up with my power and want to know how other people are feeling about our situation.

It's not like I can ask them, because they'll just lie to stay alive. This way, I can know what everyone thinks without them fearing me. It's genius!

Although I love the power I have, I feel empty inside, just as I had done before the bombs. I need something- someone to fill the hole in my heart and I think I have found it.

I am the least maternal person I'm the universe but with her, all I want to do is make sure she's OK. I would kill everyone down here if it meant keeping her safe.

I've not killed, tortured or hit anyone for six months (apart from the bitch who slagged off my kid) just to keep her from being scared of me.

I can see she's struggling, but I'm not sure how it approach her so y/n, if it gets to be too much for you, you're always welcome to come and talk to me, sweetheart.

Now, I know getting to know what everyone feels about me is great. But the me they know, is just an act. To be truly honest with you all, I'm scared and not just of the apocalypse.

I'm scared about restarting my life after it all blows over. I'm scared that you all think I am just a cold hearted bitch with no feelings. I'm scared that I come down to hard on yo ugh all and I'm scared you don't trust me.

But the thing I'd never think I'd ever tell anyone, is that I'm actually really afraid that no one will ever fall in love with me. I always say I love being alone, but everyday, I sort of wish I had someone.

Well I think I've given you all enough of my crappy dreams for tonight." She closed the book slowly and sat down.

Y/n got up and walked towards me and the next thing I knew, her arms were around my waist, holding me close.

"I never had anyone to protect me," she whispered, so that only I could hear.

"I'll protect you," I said softly, hugging her back.

"Thank you,"

"Ms Venable?" Coco asked from across the room.

"Yes?"

"I wrote that first entry,"

"I know," and then she walked up to me and our lips connected in a gentle kiss.

"Would you believe me if I said that was my first kiss?" I whispered just as she kissed me again.

"You're pretty good at it," she smiled and pulled away.

"This is fucking adorable," Gallant shouted from the table, as y/n looped an arm around my waist again and rested her head on my shoulder.

"Aww you're like a little family," Emily sighed, making me grin.

"I could get used to this," I whispered to y/n and Coco and thanked someone somewhere for listening to my wishes.

The End.