Subete Wo Hakai Suru gang part 2

Chapter 1 - memories: a new start

well , thank fuck , i thought as the cigarette i just dropped on my pants had fallen down to the ground , waiting to be picked up by me . i sigh as i do and then shove it back in y mouth as the night sung it s beautiful melody . the slight breeze beating my face as the grey smoke filled my eyes with water . the empty beer bottle i was still holding in my hand , felt cold as the last drop landed in my mouth . the door opens with a rusty sound following it as the figure of a man , i knew so well , sat next to me on the swing . 

we stare at the sky for a few minutes , casually seeing him glance at me from time to time . 

,, don t you wanna come home ?" he asks , almost unheard by the sound of the wind though my hair . my eyes , shimmering , as the little dots in the sky we called starts lit up the whole scenery . i sigh to myself as i look at him with an absentminded smile . 

,, i think ill stay here for a while ." i answer with a rusty voice . 

i stare back at the sky , mesmerized by how beautiful the world could me . the moon , almost smiling at me , as i took a deep breath out of the fresh air . this is life , i though . 

,, it s getting late . are you sure you don t want to come home ?" he asks again , as if my previous answer wasn t enough . ,, Lizza misses you . she said you guys don t hang out as much ." 

i slowly let my head drop to the ground as my hair fell like beads of water to cover my face . i sigh , this time out loud , for him to hear . 

,, im leaving tomorrow and i don t want you to contact me ." i say in a small voice , already knowing what he ll say . 

,, what ..? i though we were getting better . i mean you started taking the meds and i can see you re smiling and all ..." 

,, this isn t about what happened , Toshihiro ." i lift my face to stare at his golden eyes . ,, it s because i want to leave ." 

i can see all hope drain out of him as he shifts his head in the opposite direction , not wanting to see my serious face anymore . it broke my heart seeing him like this . but ... there was nothing i could say to myself to make up my mind . i was leaving and that was that . 

i stare back at the stars , waiting for him to say something .

,, what about Lizza ?" he finally speaks . i look back at him . 

,, she ll be fine . she ll grow and learn ... " 

,, Sophie , your her mother . she needs you ." a tears travels down his cheek as i continues staring at him with no emotion on my pale face . i get up from the swing as i sit down in front of him , petting his knees as he continued sobbing , sniffing his nose into the palm of his hand . i rest my head on his thigh . 

,, please don t cry . im only doing what i feel is best ." i say.

he sniffs one last time . ,, how is this ... a good decision ? you re abandoning your family !" 

i stare at him . a hand slapped on his mouth as i continued petting him . 

,, shh ." i smile . ,, there s no need to scream like that . we ll always be in each others lives . " i let go of his face as i stand up , clearing my throat . 

,, tell Lizza to look for me . or at least to try ." 

and with that i stand up and enter the house , my hands comfortably in my pockets , a smile stuck on my lips . what happened wasn t gonna affect my decisions . but what happened .....

January 3rd , 2006 , the day Sinner died . 

the last time i ve seen them was on this day . Akio , Sinner and Yoko . the last i ve heard of them is from Meeru who was a recent visitator . he told me their release date and we all gathered there to greet them as they came out of that grey building with joy and smiles on their faces . we all hugged and everything seemed like it was back to normal . but then ... Tenshi Buji .  unfortunately for us they were released on that day as well and we were forced to fight them . well , that s a lie . we wanted to fight them . and the battle was one i ve never seen before . it truly scared all of us , to the point of never speaking again . i can still remember it , as if it was yesterday . the feeling on blood on my knuckles , the sweat , the battle screams . it all felt like a trance as we fought like animals , protecting their territory . that day broke all my sanity . made me unravel , turned me into a monster . ever since then i ve had an alter ego . the same as me but one thing very different :