Subete Wo Hakai Suru gang part 2

Chapter 4 - memories: father

i walk away in a silence , the only thing that was heard was my pounding heart and my struggle to breath calmly . i pant as i let my head drop to the ground , one last sniff is heard before i wipe my face with the sleeve of my shirt . i truly though i lost everything that day . my will to continue to live . my happiness . my mind ... 

somebody grabs my hand , stopping me from walking away . i don t turn around to look and i don t need to , as he spoke : 

,, please , don t do it ." 

,, do what ? kill myself ? im not that stupid ." 

,, no . please don t let yourself be consumed by that being inside you ."

my eyes darken with rage as i try my best not to let it show . 

,, what are you talking about ?" i ask . 

,, i ve seen her before . she is full of rage , charging towards anyone who hurts her ... i don t want you to become that . please ."

i snatch my hand away . 

,, we will never speak about this . i never want to see your face again ." i say as i walk away , leaving him behind . 

whoever saw me that day would never see me again . that s how i thought it to be ...

,, wake up you lazy fart ! " 

i open my eyes in a daze as i frown immediately forms on my face . 

her ..

her face , so close to mine it was uncomfortable , as she glared at me , making me annoyed . 

,,ugh ." i groan . ,, what the hell do you want ?" i sit up in my bed as she moves away , sighing .

,, i need you to wake up . we re almost at the port , i need you in shape ." she crosses her arms as she waits for me to get up . i roll my eyes as i slowly move the blanket away but i stop before i do. 

,, im not wearing any pants ." i tell her as she slowly turns around . i get up , quickly putting my pants on as she turn around again . 

,, now , do you remember what i taught you ?" she asks as i clear my throat . 

,, yes . " she was talking about English . i have been learning some of it the past few days , just enough to help me around . she told me no one in America knew Japanese so i would have to learn . she also told me to never mention her name . apparently she changed it to some American name . the reason was for protecting herself . i don t know how much i believe . 

,, ok . do you remember the plan ?" 

,, i guess . you drop me of in New Jersey and i kill the bastard ?"

,, wrong . i drop you off and you enter the church . you dress up as a nun , act like one , ok ? i don t need any complications . and then , kill the bastard . call me immediately after you do . then i ll have to change your name as well , possibly other things too . like that hair ." 

,, why do i need to be reminded , like im some little kid ? "

,, because you clearly need to be ." 

i sigh . ,, don t worry . i know what im doing . also , if you plan of changing my hair color or some shit , i ain t doin that ." 

,, no... i was thinking more like cutting it ." 

i stare at my hair , hanging down my shoulders . 

,, but , all my life i ve had short hair . i ve even had a boys hair cut when i was young . " i complain as she rolls her eyes .