The Crimson Oath

Chapter 1 - Part 2

Nixie

"What? Why would you think that?" My guard rose up as it usually did when there was even just a hint of someone about to attack me verbally or physically.

"Oh please. Any idiot would be able to notice the death glare you gave me right at that moment..." Her voice trailed off, and I gave her a confused expression. Maybe she was right though. It didn't even cross my mind that I may have come across as hostile. It made me feel completely foolish to be honest although it never crossed my mind before that she was part of the LGBTQ+ community. That thought made me feel like I was being offensive, in some way. "Look I didn't mean to come across as a b*tch. It is just really hard for me when Slade's groupies start crowding around him like he is a prize to be won and brought home."

To my surprise she just gave me a sympathetic expression and gazed at me with a warm look, "Hey I get it but I want you to know that even if I was into guys I would never do that to a person with a good heart which I can see you have."

If I really did have a good heart then my conscious self wouldn't have asked him to meet in the forest and part ways with each other. The memory was still fresh in my brain, the way his feral-black eyes shifted from loving to pain in a matter of words has been haunting me since that day. What bothered me the most is that people keep saying I am a good person yet the worst thing I could have possibly done to the man I fell in love with came true.

"Maybe not everything that meets your eye is true." I stated matter-of-factly with a pained expression on my face and my nails digging the palms of my hands to hold myself together while waiting for her to come to the realisation that I am not a good person as she originally claimed.

"There is definitely more to you than meets the eye that's for sure." She fixed me with a solemn look as if trying to understand what I was going through. It struck me that Janice's intelligence came from much beyond her years. Scr*w this, scr*w all the secrecy because at this point I knew if I didn't confess she would figure the truth out anyways. "If you want to know more about me, there is a place I need to show you." My voice blurted out calmly even though I was pretty sure that my internal organs were scrambled from what she would say to me in response which I didn't even know.

"Then take me to that 'mysterious' place. There's one thing you should know about me Nix. I take secrets to my grave." Jan replied with such determination that it was hard not to envy her for it because in my mind I always thought that such individualistic people one in a million meaning not very common.

"Follow me," I said, turning on my 8-inch snake-skinned heels.

"Lead the way," Jan whispered, and inched closer to me. I could feel her continued presence, as we both walked along the west side of the corridor which lead towards a pair of cottage-wooden doors. My heart skipped a beat, at the window glimpse of the outstretched lake next to the picnic benches.

"Don't you think it looks beautiful?" The blonde-haired girl whispered into my ear.

We were already out of the campus and made it onto the pitch. I couldn't deny that it was a breathtaking view. "The mountains are definitely a sight that's for sure," I revealed. "I am attracted more to the lake though, it just has that nice, pristine edge to it."

When I followed Janice's warm-brown gaze towards the lake I realised that she was right about it.  The glimmering surface of the water seemed to brighten as they both approached slowly but surely towards it.

"It feels lonesome," I added. "I guess here is as good as ever a place to do what I wanted to do in the first place."

Jan gave me a puzzled stare and I sighed as the very though of spilling everything to my roommate made me nervous.