Alone

4

Alexandra

Roaming the hallways of the place I call home I sigh. "We're not gonna be gone forever" Lexi said as she hugged me from behind wrapping her arms around me making me feel secure. "I know it's just I've blocked my past for a very long time blocking it was the only way I know how to cope the only thing I haven't blocked is the anger because that's what fuels me" I sighed again. "Hey chin up they can't hurt you anymore Alex" she was right I needed to shake this off. "I just know going there I'm gonna have to face my past and the people in it" I'm greatful for the family I have now they've given me a better version of myself.

"Its time to leave now sis" Ben said behind Lexi I smiled. "We should arrive around mid day and the trucks should be there waiting for us" I smiled. "Now all that's left is to say good bye" i spoke quietly making my way to the dining room where everyone was waiting on me. "We will be leaving in 5 minutes and remember guys just because I won't be here it don't mean I will condone behaviour that is not welcomed in this gang, if you hear of any shipments contact me before making a plan I may not be here but I am still the boss you hear me" I used my buisness voice. "Yes boss" everyone spoke in unison. My gang is like my family they won't disobey me unless they have to. Especially after what happened when someone disobeyed me for fun his body is still rotting the cells were he belongs. After decomposing we'll pick up his bones and grind them into a paste it's good for your skin you know.

I sat Lexi and Ben down. "you guys are my best friends and my siblings but I will not take any shanangins on this ride you hear me" I raised my left eyebrow. "Yes ma'am we will be on our best behaviour" they tried to contain their laughs but it just went right out the window.

There were two cars. Hunter and myself being the driver's the rest of the group could pick whatever car they wanted to go into. "Lexi and Ben what car are yous going in?" Lucy asked smart girl if your not the driver you never and I mean never want to get stuck in a car with the twins it's a nightmare within 20 minutes your ears will start to bleed and this is a 12 hour drive I'll want to shoot one of them by the end of it. "With our lovely sister of course" damnit I muttered. "but don't you want to get revenge on Hunter for last time remember" please take the bait please. "We could never go 12 hours without our sister Lexi bashed her eye lashes. "Okay then we're with Hunter" Lucy smiled quickly jumping in.

"This is going to be the longest 12 hours of my life" I muttered sliding into the driver's seat.  20 minutes in and I already feel like my ears are bleeding and I have headphones in ugh. I had 11 hours and 40 minutes left and I was already in my own world. I left some pretty important people behind but no one knew the war I was having at home nobody noticed the slight limp I always had caused by Damion my father I stopped calling him father the minute I left now he's just Damion the sperm donor. I thought about Aaron and his chaotic family how Kamila deals with 9 boys Is beyond my knowledge. Those 9 boys were my lifeline but I needed to be my lifeline at the end I needed to focus on myself and find the best version of me. It was hard at first but the anger within me helped.

I thought about all the students that caused me hell. Cassidy and her gang of possy's, the entire football team. A couple times they had ganged up on me and beat me but it was nothing compared to what I got at home worst of all my brother would often join in everyone knew he hated me. Deep down I hoped he loved me and it was just his sick way of showing he cares. I look in the review mirror and see Lexi and Ben the best set of twins I have ever seen. That's how it was suppose to be why couldn't Luke be like that? Was it too hard for him or was I really the dissapointment of the family. I knew if my new family had any idea I was thinking of this they would have my head. We might not be blood but we are family and that's that. I could already hear my mother's scolding voice in the back of my head. "They don't deserve your thoughts there scum nothing" I giggled at that. I had been so in my head I had missed the turn off we were almost there another 30 or so minutes after I turn around that is.

It was nice just me and my thoughts I had finally got some peace after 2 hours the twins fell asleep curled in each other's arms. Once in town I looked at the address and shook my head. "Out of this entire town it just had to be that neighborhood" I tutted away to no one in particular. "It was the only house for sale big enough for all of us and the extra rooms you wanted" Lexi yawned sitting up to stretch. "6 bedroom each with an onsuite, a home theatre, gym room with an inside pool next to a hot tub and a secret room under yours for all the weapons we need" Ben voiced waking up. "alright sleepyheads were almost there" I laughed at their shocked faces. "You could have woke me up and I couldve driven" Ben gave me his evil eye. "Oh stop it we stopped for 2 hours to stretch and eat I tried waking yous up and you just said fuck off" I laughed at his behaviour at the time there was just no waking up the king and queen of sleep.

They both muttered a sorry. I pulled into our new house and looked across the road. Up in the highest bedroom lived a girl the girl was me. Yes I now live across the road from my old house where I grew up looking at my old bedroom the curtain was closed and window was boarded up. I saw a little boy playing in the front yard I wonder who that is.

"Mommy look the new neighbours are here" a boy who looked about 7 and vaguely familiar said while dragging his mother out of the house. I took one look at her and ran towards her latching on for dear life scared that she might just dissapear. "why is that lady holding onto mummy like her life depends on it" the little boy asked Lexi. "Beats me little dude" she smiled. A group of boys made there way outside wondering what the commotion was. "Um nice to meet you and all but your kind of creeping me out" the woman spoke so I slowly untangled myself from her and looked her square in the eyes.

"Omg but it can't be can it" I smiled. "your eyes are correct" she lached herself back on to me and refused to let go scared that this was all a dream. "Mum what am I missing her who is this girl" I looked behind her and smirked.  She realsed me and I looked at the face of the voice. "Oh come on Kay you don't remember me" I poured. "Alexandra" all the boys yelled before running towards me all at once except my favorite of the Fuller boys who had a frown on his face. 8 of the boys tackled me into the ground trying to get to me all at once. My eyes stayed on the one who mattered the most. My best friend Aaron Fuller who just stood there confused as ever.

Everyone got off me one by one and I made my way to the boy who I've loved since I could breathe. "come on A you didn't miss me at all" I asked tilting my head. "This is a dream it's all a dream" he whispered and I did the only thing I could think of slapped him across the face as hard as I could. Shocked faces surrounded me. "Alex it really is you" a tear slipped down his face as he picked me up and spun me around. I giggled.

"Oh right almost forgot boys this is Lexi also known as Alexis, Ben her twin brother, My friends Lucy, Gabe and Hunter" Lexi went to go and shake hands with Ace who looked at her weird. "Girl we don't do things like that around here" Ace picked her up and gave her the biggest bear hug he could muster. "Guys this is the Fuller family I have told you guys about" They all day hi. "Which one is the famous Aaron" Lexi smirked. "right here but why am I famous" Aaron's eyes wondered towards me. "Because no matter how hard I tried I could never get the full title of best friend because it had already been claimed by Aaron Fuller just wanted to see who I had shared custody with" I laughed.

"It was nice seeing you guys again but I have been driving for 12 hours and I've been dying for a cigarette so if you don't mind I'm just gonna go over there" I said to the group which is quite massive now I look at it.

"Bitch I'm coming" Everyone said at the same time. I just laughed. Instead of moving we all just stood there when another man came out from the house. "You better not be having a smoke without me" papa Fuller said as he came out and hugged his wife. "Hunny guess who just moved in next door" he looked straight at me. "As I live and breathe Alexandra Richards" I laughed and gave him a smoke.