My Life After Zayn Left: The Diary

March 25, 2015

Dear Diary,

Today is the worst day of my life. After almost five years together, Zayn left One Direction. Zayn Javaad Malik left me. One Direction's band account announced so that makes me just SO fucking pissed because I hate Modest! I'm 100% sure they did it, it must be their fault. So either way they announced it at 10:30AM Central Time. I can't stop crying and I feel like this is my first heartbreak, which in a way kind of is because I NEVER HAD A FREAKING BOYFRIEND BECAUSE IVE SPENT THE LAST FIVE YEARS WORSHIPING THESE STUPIDS.

Well nobody in my family get me, they are all like "WhY aRe YoU cRyInG iT's JuST soME OthER bAnD" I just wanted to punch them all in the face to be honest like NO bro it's not just, "some other band" if it was some other band I wouldn't be crying.

Then the media, THE MEDIA, the stupid MEDIA. Oh my God they all talked every single one of them talked. I think it's safe to say the fandom broke the internet. We all broke it. EVERYONE was talking about the boys.

It was horrible all those carrots acted like they cared. I know they didn't care not like us they don't care. It's so different it's like comparing pizza with apples. It's NOT the SAME. I hate them oh God.

At the end of the day I really do hope the best for Zayn, I love him and I'm happy he's doing what is best for him, even if it doesn't make me happy. I hope he finds happiness and peace with himself. Most importantly I hope he doesn't lose contact with the fans because if he did I'd probably die. My mom told me Zayn's brave because he has shown this generation who thinks fame and money is your only source of happiness, that it's really not and hopefully people get that mow, no matter what it took.

-A Fan