Forever His

Chap 13

i can’t say I was nervous because I wasn’t, I was terrified. I had texted Marcus and ask him to meet me at the cabin, and here I sat in the floor of the living room, the fire blasted from the fireplace. Outside snow felt, reminding me of the last time I was there.  I could hear Marcus moving around the kitchen, and I was becoming annoyed, he had been in there for 20 minutes and haven’t said a word to me, so I walked to the kitchen and started to conversation.

“so I have the feeling my father is not my real father” I told him.

“just because the guy is an ass to you doesn’t mean he is not your dad” he said looking at what I believe was soup heating on the stove.

“that is it? not at why or are you sure?”

“Danielle sometimes you get carry away and I know your relationship with your dad isn’t easy”

“basically I'm over dramatic?”

“that is not what I said” his back was till to me, and now I was mad beyond words.

“Really? Because that is what it sounded like, and could you at least turn and look at me when we are talking?”

“what do you want from me Danielle?” he said turning but still looking  somewhere else but me

“I want you to look at me when we talk” I said walking to him,  I grabbed his chin forcing him to look at me. “I want to know what is going on with us. We were ok and then suddenly all we do is fight.”

“doing ok? That is what you want to call it Danielle?” he said moving away, but still facing me.

“what will you call it Marcus?”

“we were fuck buddies Danielle, I helped you relief the stress of your fuck up family, while I got what I wanted, to fuck you but that was it. that was all we were” I retracted like he had slap me.

“that is what you think?” I said backing up. I felt myself starting to shake. “you are right, why will anyone want to be anything else but my fuck buddy, I have the body for it. But other than that I’m like my family, too fuck up for anything else. That is why Devon left isn’t it?”

“Danielle…”

“no Marcus you made your point clear. don’t worry me and my fuck up family will get out of your life. after all you got to fuck me and that is what you wanted. Glad I could give it to you” I said walking out the kitchen and toward the door. I was barely holding the tears, as I started opening the door. Marcus closed.

“let me go Marcus” my voice shook . I was about to lose it and I didn’t what him to see.

“I cant” he was so close I felt his breath against my skin “I'm sorry, that was not true. dam Danielle how come anyone else can see it, but you”  Marcus turned me around and pin me against the door “does every time I touch you feel like I just want to fuck you” he said his eyes move over my face, follow by his fingers.

“does every time I kiss you feels like this is just physical? Danielle I have love you for 2 years. I have wanted to have you for forever. You are not like any of the other girls. you don’t care what other people thinks about you. you are comfortable with who you are. you do and say what you think, what you want, what you feel”

“that one may be a lie, because I haven’t told you how I feel, Marcus. I wanted for us to be better, but Marcus I love you, I have since I met you. And the last few weeks have been torture without you.” I said  my hand on his cheek.

“For now on I want to be part of your mess; I want to be part of your drama. The night you let me touch you, the night you let me be with you the first time. Even when it was such a hard time, I was beside myself. For 2 years I had thought of anything but you, and there you were allowing me to erase all the bad memories.”

“Marcus I'm scare. People that had say they love me  has turn on me. people that was supposed to protect me has hurt me. please don’t play with me because I do love you with all my heart”

“I mean it Danielle. I love you with everything I have, I don’t think  I have ever felt this way about anyone.  you pissed me off, you make me laugh, you make me want to be a better person than I could ever be”

I couldn’t hold the tears any longer.  Tears felt from my eyes and Marcus will brush them with his thumbs.  And kiss me.

“I” kiss “love” kiss “you” he said, I couldn’t help but smile.

“there she is. No more tears” he said kissing me one more time “today is gonna be a good day, because from today on Danielle Steel you are my girlfriend” he said with a smile

“I don’t get a say in this?” I said teasing.

“not a single one” he said resting his fore head against mine.

“how about make love to me, Marcus?” I said looking into his eyes

“now those you can say all day long baby. Because I going to, tonight I want to explore you, slowly, not rush, not roughness. Tonight I want to show you how much I love you” he said before kissing me, slowly.

“but first let’s eat” he said running towards the kitchen. I laugh yeah, that sounded like the man I was in love with.