Sick Again(law&order:svu fanfic)

Who am I?

I've been living with Kathy for a week now so she can keep an eye on me I don't understand why she cares so much but I'm very thankful! Since Elliot left I've tried not to be as angry about everything it's a little hard sometimes...I'm so lost without him right now- "Olivia" says Kathy with her yet again sweet angel soft voice. "Yeah" I say my voice breaking and obviously tear stained cheeks. "D-Do you need anything?" She asks like she notices a sign that I'm about get sick, I sit down and hope for the best which never happens but I can dream right "Kathy?" I say as nice as I possibly can right now, "Yeah Liv?" She's says sounding so sweet, "Will you go to dinner with me?" I say cautiously "Yes!" She says like she's been waiting for me to ask, All of dinner I couldn't help but stare she's beautiful, I soon catch myself thinking of her as I did Elliot "I'm not gay" I think to myself, She looks at me like I'm human but I can't like a girl no one would accept me, When we go home I lay on the couch I don't why but I feel butterflies around Kathy, She's my friend she doesn't like me back if I did like her anyway, The next day I go to Cragen's office and tell him I want to work from home