Destroy the Innocence // Nosung

- Chapter 17 -

Jisung pulls open the front door to the roof and runs towards the end. As already said ... he just wants to put an end to it all. Jisung climbs over the bars. The tips of his toes no longer even touch the ground. He closes his eyes and takes a deep breath.

"Mum ... three years ago I promised you to keep fighting for you and for Dad. Not to end my life yet. To look ahead and make the best of it, but here I am.
The abyss is deep and the temptation great.
Dad has now left me too and at first I thought everything will be better now. Since he can't hit me anymore, but the truth is, everything just got worse.
Day and night I have the feeling that I am the reason for his death, although all the indications point to an accident that he got himself into it.
I really thought Haechanie, Renjunie and Lele were my friends. But they just believed the rumors and didn't ask their friend and hear his opinion or side of the story.
And Jeno... I really thought I meant something to him, but he replaced me with a slut. I let him fuck me without defending myself, which now also makes me a bitch. I feel so... so dirty, so used and so betrayed. My heart can no longer go along with it. This pain every day. Every day I have to look into the faces of these liars."

Now my tears are running uncontrollably down my cheeks. I look and take a deep breath.
"I HATE YOU!" Then I close my eyes and just let myself fall. I try to feel the wind and the lightness, but instead I feel like two arms wrap around me and press me against a warming body.
"Mum?" I ask while opening my eyes, but instead I look into Haechan's face.

Immediately I push it away and take two steps back.
"H-Haechan?" I ask and look at him and notice that there are still some behind him. "L-Lele ... Renjunie ... Jeno ..."
"We heard everything and ..."

"...WE'RE SORRY!"

They all shout it out at the same time and bow deeply. Immediately tears welled up in my eyes again. But not because I'm happy that they finally understood, but because it's too late.
"You really think I'll forgive you now after what you've done to me? After you let this bitch get me down like that? Jeno you never answered my question and made me believe that I was really just a toy for you and the three of you would rather have trusted liars than me. Now it's to late... "

Jisung wants to run back to the abyss, but his friends and Jenos hold him back. Jisung defends himself and tries to free himself from the holds. Through all his fidgeting he doesn't even notice Jeno walking up to the boy, putting his hands on Jisung's cheeks and then pressing his lips on Jisung's.

Through the warm and love-filled kiss, Jisung becomes calm and his heart starts racing. Jisung thinks about kissing back, but his feelings take over and just do it. The feeling of love returns to Jisung's heart.

When Jeno breaks away from Jisung, Jisung has to cry again. Jeno immediately hugs him and tries to calm him down. After Jisung has calmed down, he pushes away from Jeno slightly and looks at him. "T-Thank you."
"What for?" Asks Jeno in surprise, after all he was the one who hurt Jisung in the first place.
"For that ...", then Jisung presses his Hyung a kiss on the lips.