Destroy the Innocence // Nosung

- Chapter 2-

"WHERE WERE YOU? "Someone suddenly yells at Jisung.
"I-I was in the bathroom," Jisung lies to his hyung. "So long?" Asks Chenle.
"I-I'm sorry. I wasn't doing very well," he lied again.

"It's okay. Now you're here. So let's go to eat," Renjun says a little desperately. Chenle sighs in defeat and takes Jisung's hand in his and simply pulls him behind him. They find a table and they all sit down.
"Sungie what do you want to eat?", Haechan asked him and looked at him with sparkling eyes.

"Hyung, I can get my food myself, thanks," says Jisung and wants to get up, but then Renjun grabs his sleeve back down and pushes him into his place.
"Haechanie and I get the food. You stay seated," says Renjun in his commanding tone and Jisung hits hard. He hates it when Renjun uses this tone, because then he can't say anything against it, so he says in a shaky voice what he would like to eat.

"I-I have an apple and an orange juice," he says, avoiding eye contact with his Hyungs because he knows exactly how they are looking at him. Those looks ... he hates them more than Renjun's strict tone, but there is nothing he can do to avoid them.

"Jisung please .. you have to eat more," Chenle asks him and takes his hand, but Jisung just remains silent and continues to look at the floor. Tears almost come to him.

Jisung has never told his friends the real reason why he eats so little. He always told them that he was dissatisfied with his body and therefore did not eat much, but Jisung is not dissatisfied with his body. He doesn't love him, but it could get him worse.

He could never tell them the real reason in his life. That's why he's covering it up.
"I know Hyung, but I can't ... not yet," he says quietly, only hearing his Hyungs exhale loudly.
"Okay Jisung, I'll get it for you. At least it's more than nothing," Renjun finally gives in.

Then Renjun and Haechan go to get the food while Jisung and Chenle stay at the table. As usual, Chenle complains about the boring math class and Jisung just listens patiently. When Haechan and Renjun are back and everyone starts to eat, Chenle also quiets down and has lunch with relish.

The four of them hardly speak to each other during dinner. Sometimes Haechan is annoying Renjun and then by pecking him on the side and trying to tickle him and Renjun then slaps him on the shoulder. Then Haechan is whining like a baby, but doesn't stop to annoy Renjun.
Chenle and Jisung just watch the two of them with a slight smile, but stay out of it.

When Jisung looks around, he notices that he is being watched. He immediately knows who that person is and looks away nervously because of it. But Chenle has seen the sudden change in mood and is of course worried.
"Hey Sungie are you all right?" He asks and Haechan and Renjun immediately stop their little fighting and look at Jisung, who looks nervously into the eyes of the three.

"Y-Yes everything's fine," he lied to them with a small smile. But they saw something printed on Jisung, but they also knew that Jisung wouldn't say anything. No matter how long they would be annoying with it.

So the three of them just nodded suspiciously and Jisung bit his lip.
He hated lying to his friends, but what should he do? He can't tell them that Jeno, the biggest fuckboy at this school, stole his first kiss and has now watched him with his friends.

"This is going to be a long ass ride!"