My story as an Army

It was a summer.

More specifically summer 2018.

2018. This incredible year , from the beginning to the end.

And you think that they'd believe me if I told them ? That they're the ones who made much of this happiness?

Yes, these 7 young men that I discovered on a beautiful day of July ,when the sun gave us the best part of him , when the birds were singing at the top of their lungs and the wind was scarce , I woke up like an ordinary day and I would never ever had thought that this day will be the turn of my life , that this day will change everything ,gonna shake things up , that this day was gonna make me an another person forever and , yes , I was going to meet the most important people of my life.

From that day when I plunged myself in their music , their vidéos , I have drowned , drowned by their laughter , their style , their kindness , their humor , their beauty , their honesty. I wanted to know everything about them , know them like my pocket and learn how to love them . Yet , at this time , they were just a bunch of strangers. Little by little they became a safe place , then an addiction , a place which I couldn't detach myself and later became friends with, to finally be a family.

I love them and even this word isn't enough , I'm grateful for everything and I want them to be happy forever because they deserve much more than the world , sometimes I ask myself if they're really real..It's hard to believe..

I've just ended up a difficult year. An entire year where I was lonely and where I didn't smile sincerely once. I will hate it forever even though it's the time where I met them and when they taught me how to accept and live with it because my life was a part of me. When I've met them , I smiled for the first time since a long time. A true one, dazzling of sincerity. Their song named "I'm Fine" helps me a lot. Thanks to it I could forget my past , and go on. I felt understood as if the song was made for me. I felt , in a way ,relieved. BTS songs are medecines and every sips make you feel better.

When I look at them I instinctively smile and have stars in my eyes ,they're so precious.

They gave me everything. Really everything and without me asking they give me again and again , thanks to them I have a musical style, clothing ,a passion , friends , a family but especially a dream , yes and the most beautiful that I've ever had. I didn't know what to do in the futur , I was lost but they made me understand that nothing was impossible and when I realized that , all the limits of my mind and my heart opened up and I felt so free. That's why now I want to make music , I've always been passionated by it and I realized that nothing can stop me , so I went for it. Now I'm in high school making music and what I like.

Yoongi is my model , he inspired me so much and continues to do it every day, I recognize myself in him and at the same time I want to be like him , I feel touched , pierced and concerned when I listen to"Nevermind", I feel that nothing can stop me and that nothing will ever stop me. I know that music is the only thing that I would constantly scrape for and that I would always think about what they accomplished and I would not let myself be beaten down.

They educated me somehow , learned what life was , philosophy , I could face the problems that fell on me in such a simpler way , I could understand the world around me and see it from another angle ,everything enlightened , the meaning of life and all these things..But I also saw that the road was not going to be simple and that life was not all rest. They thaught me to fight with all my strength without ever giving up , without ever giving up my dream , that I have to move forward even when it hurts , that we have the right to be afraid , to cry and to suffer , to not have confidence in ourselves but that we have to get up and that they would always be there for us to reach out , as many times as necesserary.

I asked myself ,and even now, if I deserved all of this , if it was possible to have as much love and support suddenly. Every day I tell myself it's impossible to give them back what they gave me , I could do anything for them but it would be never enough. That's why I came to the conclusion that we must achieve our objectives , our dreams and live with a smile. This is the most beautiful and best way to honor our love and gratitude

They allowed wonderful meetings , to the ARMY to get closer , to get to know each other without fear, they created a big family and I'm proud to tell that I found my home. So even if I had to be the only ARMY in this planet and the world rejected me , I would stay , eternally.

A big thank you to BTS for reaching out to me every time I drowned.

Thank you for getting me out of a nightmare , thank you for giving me a place among these stars , for allowing me to be truly happy and have confidence in my futur. That light you gave me , it will never die out and for anything in the world , it will continue to shine brightly in my heart , you're the 7 angels that make my soul tremble.

Thank you for existing , to make us live , to gave us hope , to be the light in the darkness...to be yourselves.

                         The end.