The Outlook

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Chalyn POV                     Houston, Texas

I sighed playing in my hair, unsure what to do with it i cupped my face feeling ugly and insecure

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I sighed playing in my hair, unsure what to do with it i cupped my face feeling ugly and insecure. The amount of compliments I got a day made me feel good there and then and right after I went back to feeling ugly.

I don't know what it was, I was never this self conscious ever, I'm constantly starving myself which I shouldn't be doing just to make sure I don't gain any weight. I just feel fat and ugly and worthless. Tired of thinking about it I snapped back into reality sorting my hair out.

I ended up putting my wig back on not having the energy to do my hair. I remembered my dad was here getting up knocking on the guest room door to see if he was awake. "Dad" i called no answer.

My heart dropped I hope he didn't leave in the middle of the night. I opened the door to find him laying in there snoring. A smile crept on my face.

I closed the door letting him get his sleep, I went back into my room looking in the mirror studying myself hearing the compliments people give me smiling.

I got up going downstairs yawning still tired turning the tv on going to YouTube and putting on Jazz and Crystal.

I think I'm the only that like them they hella cute to me though no cap. My phone started ringing making me roll my eyes. Praying it wasn't my manager because today was my off day.

Of course it was him. "Hey" i said faking a smile. "You good shorty" he asked. "Yeah I'm coolin" i told him. "I got a event and I need you to come it's a private party for my homeboy so I need only the best it's gone be you Ayanna Alexis and Kesha" he told me.

"Ayanna said she coming" "yeah ask her just finished calling her" he said "okay put me down anything in particular we gotta wear or" i asked to make sure.

"Lingerie please" he said. "Gotchu see you later text me all the details" i said putting the phone down dialling Ayanna number to make sure if she wasn't going I was bout to be sad I hate going to private events by myself I hate it.

I huffed going to my wardrobe seeing what was in there to wear tonight. Didn't find anything I liked so I decided to get dressed and go to the mall and find something in Victoria secret.

"Dad I'm going to go out you need anything" i said startling him. "Hm umm can I get some candy please" "yeah sure what kind you like" i asked " you really don't remember my favourite candy" he said looking at me making a face. "Nasty you still like black liquorice" i said pretending to gag.

He tried to throw a pillow at me as I closed the door on him running down the stairs calling a Uber and waiting for it to come. I literally had sweats on and a cap. "Hope I don't see no niggas cause y'all love to come out when a bitch looking ugly" i said to myself quietly.

I popped two gums in my mouth as my Uber arrived. "Hi Uber for Chayln" the man said pronouncing my name all the way wrong. "Um yeah" i said not about to correct him.

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