Emotionless (Attack On Titan! Modern!)

Prologue

Alex POV

So much has happened. First finding out that i'm emotionless and can't show any sort of emotion to anyone. Second, the death of my parents, that was tragic. And third, the only family that understands me is going to leave me. What else could possibly go wrong? I'm 22 and i still wonder why am i alive.

I tried so hard to fit in throughout my life but.....it just never seemed to work. In Elementary school, i was bullied a lot just because i was different. Why is that? Why am i so different? "Hello?" A voice said from behind me. I slightly looked over my shoulder to see who it was and to my surprise....it was the new kid. "I don't mean to intrude but....why are you sitting alone?" the boy asked. I just shrugged, "is it wrong to sit alone?" i asked plainly. The boy shrugged and sat next to me. "I'm going to be straight right now but i just moved here and don't have a lot of friends." the boy said with a goofy looking smile then continued, "my name is Reiner Braun." he stuck out his hand so i could shake it. I hesitantly reached my hand out but shook his hand anyway. "Nice to meet you. I'm Alexandria." I said. Reiner still had that goofy looking smile on his face, "Alexandria, thats a pretty name. Do you mind if i call you Alex?" I shrugged at his question. After that, Reiner and i started to hang out and we became best friends and i wasn't bullied by the other kids that much because Reiner was always there.

In high school, a lot of the girls would bully me. What was their deal anyway? Was it because they were jealous of me because I'm friends with Reiner? "Hey Alex. You should start standing up for yourself." I looked at Reiner plainly, "what you mean by that?" Reiner looked at me then said, "What i mean is you shouldn't let people treat you like shit. You should say what's on your mind and tell them to back off." I turned my head to a group of kids playing in the park. There was a lot of laughing....something i wanted the most. Reiner noticed i wasn't taking note of him and looked in the direction of the group of kids. "Alex, what's wrong? You seem a bit off lately." Reiner asked with a concern in his voice. "It's nothing." I stood up from the park bench and walked away. What does it take to have what these kids have? Why was i so different?

Soon after, I pushed Reiner away. I stopped telling him what was going on in my life and we stopped hanging out. I was once again alone. No one to talk to. No one to tell me everything is going to be okay. I had no one. I'm in university now and life is still the same. I haven't spoken to Reiner for 3 years now but i made a new friend. Hanji was a little weird but in a good way. I have no idea how we met but all i could remember was that i was at an anime convention and we bumped into each other....i guess thats how we met.

Life has its ups and downs...but my life has no meaning at all. What am i still doing here?

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