"it was just an experiment to see if Ron liked it so why am I so jealous of this.."
Ron and Harry have been experimenting with their sexuality, with each other, since 4th year but why do things change when Ron starts dating Lavender? Why does Harry...
CW: past self harm is hinted at + self harm thoughts also hinted at.
Yesterday felt like a dream, I wish it was.
Ron spent the whole of last night in the Infirmary, I wanted to stay with him but I was ushered out.
Why do people do this, why? They've caused so much pain and sadness over someone liking men. What the fuck is wrong with this world?
And Lavender, that bitch. She hurt Ron, Ron loved her and she knew that. She chose to stab him in the back.
I want to cuddle up with Ron, give him lots of kisses and assure him that its all okay. If only I could.
Maybe I'll tell Dumbledore what happened, no, he won't care. No one cares. Gay people are hardly even legal, no one will care about a few slurs being thrown around.
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I can't sleep, the words, the scene keeps playing over and over again in my head. It's like the scene of my parents but much clearer, more visible.
I wanted to cry, I wanted to empty my body of all the pain I felt. But I couldn't cry for fucks sake. Let me cry.
I just want a break from everything, a break from being the "chosen one", a break from all this emotional torture. Just even for 1 tiny second, a break.
I look down at my shaking arms, past scars covering every inch of them. Maybe I- no. I can't. I just can't, there has to be other coping mechanisms. There has to be other options.
I buried my face in my hands, god, why was I such a fucking emotional mess?
A/N
sorry for the depressing chapter <3 anyway on a different note, if u r ever considering self harm and/or suicide there is other ways, i'll list suicide hotlines down below and my social medias if u ever need to vent or talk:
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