CW: SUICIDAL REFERENCES AND THOUGHTS IN THIS CHAPTER (no actual suicide)
I'm sad or angry, I don't know.
Ron told me he wanted to stop our make out sessions. He didn't even explain to me why, he just said he did. We had a massive argument and now we aren't talking. I hate it when we're on non-speaking terms.
Maybe Ron figured out his sexuality? He likes someone or is dating someone? I don't know, I just wanna crawl up into a ball and cry.
Feelings are confusing, especially my feelings towards Ron. I mean they aren't romantic or anything, I just have this feeling where I wanna be around him 24/7. I'll talk to Hermione about it, she's probably read a book or 2 on psychology and feelings.
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I sighed and stepped out of bed, my joggers had rolled up my legs and were tightly holding on to my calves.
I went on a search to find Hermione, not really a search since I knew she was in the library but a search!
(A/N sorry I know these are annoying but I'm just gonna keep this thing short because I don't know what to write, this is mainly for context)
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Great, its Saturday night and I'm having a meltdown over a boy! A BOY!!!
I don't even like Ron, why does it hurt so much? Why do I feel like shit? Why do I feel like I wanna be her but not her? I was her, I was the one making out with Ron, I was the one Ron couldn't keep his hands off. What the fuck happened?
I want to die. Seriously. If I had a rope, I would. I want to take back everything I did with Ron.
I guess I know now why he stopped our make out sessions.
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