You're my treasure [ Seongjoong]

Ch13

Hongjoong was lying on his bed, thinking of his past. Reuniting with his hyung was really something he needed. He was so lost in taking care of his brother that he forgot to take care of himself. Being with his hyung assures him that there is someone who can protect him, he too can rely on someone. He too can show his weakness to someone. But his hyung was not the only person that made him feel comfortable.
At that moment he heard small laughter coming from outside. He smiled knowing that Seonghwa and Jongho are again playing some video games.

This person, Park Seonghwa, has just come into his life and started making it weird. He doesn't know why but he felt weird being near Seonghwa. Seonghwa is a very kind person, he takes good care of both of them. He makes them a healthy meal three times a day and makes sure they don't starve. He does their laundry without being asked to. He is a neat freak and keeps the house away from dust. He took great care of his cafe too, always making sure to come up with great ideas to start the day or to set up the menu.

He also took good care of their emotional needs. He taught the youngest all that he needed, he made sure to understand him. He has become a mother figure to Jongho, which he was in desperate need of. He takes good care of Yunho and Mingi and helps them calm their emotions, especially Mingi. Mingi listens to Seonghwa more than he listens to Hongjoong. Seonghwa was good at dealing with the three trio that come nearly every day at the cafe. Always listening to Yeosang, a whining San and keeping up with Wooyoung energy.

Now that he looks back it seems impossible to deal with this chaos alone.

How has he been doing it all these years?

Seonghwa has become an important part of his life. Back then he used to be tired because of his café and his friends' energy but now he feels less tired. Seonghwa has taken half of his responsibility and burden without being asked to.

And not only this, Seonghwa has casted a spell on Hongjoong. He can't stop but steals glances whenever he can. He loves to watch Seonghwa baking at the cafe or cooking at home, he can do that forever. He felt his heart racing whenever his body brushed accidentally.
He doesn't know these feelings, no one has ever made him feel like this. It sometimes confuses him but sometimes he likes being like this. He likes the latter smile, his round sparkling orbs, his pink lips, his soft touch and the way he takes care.

A small smile makes its way on Hongjoong's lips as he thinks of Seonghwa.

But is it alright to feel like this?

What are these feelings?

Hongjoong again got lost in his thoughts trying to figure out and name this feeling. Soon a voice in his head whispers.

Love?

Hongjoong's even widened, Love, is it love? What he felt for Seonghwa, is that love?

He panicked, "No," he told himself.

This can't be love. He can't love. Love is stupid. Love is all lies. His mother told him she loved him. But in reality she doesn't. His father also told him, he loves him. But he too left him behind. Love is nothing but an illusion. Love is just a fake trap. He can't feel love. No. Never. He told himself.

"No, it's not love that I feel. It's just a brotherly thing. Yeah, yeah, it's that I just care for him. Yeah, and it's also that... I've not made any friends of my age and like... he's the first one. So yeah.. I feel more attracted to him. That's all it is. Nothing more," he tried to calm himself.
" I should keep some distance from him. Just in case he misunderstands my friendship to something else," he whispered to himself.
"No, but Seonghwa is not like that. No, he will never fall for me. No he will not betray me like this. He's my friend, a very good one. We will stay like that forever," he continued to talk to himself.
"Yeahhhh, I'm sure. He will never betray our friendship. Please, Seonghwa, don't betray me. Ever, please," he said looking at the door hoping the latter would never fall for him.