You don't Know (Dsmp Fanfiction)

Chapter. 1

Independence.. one thing to fight hard for is in this world. The risk of dying is known to all who fight for it. Dream is merciless when it comes to war and they know that, yet they fight. Impressive that they last as long. I would have given up already. The motivation of Tommy and Tubbo keep everyone together in L'manburg I think. A child who only swears and his best friend who can give a good mood with his smile. I've seen it myself. Both have this charisma that gives hope.

"Vanadey? Are you okay?" A calm voice tore me out of my thoughts. It was Philza.      "You were zooming out." He sat down next to me at the table and put a cup of tea in front of me. "What were you thinking of?" he asked me while sipping his tea.                                                                           "What could happen if the conflicts become more tense..", Phil sighed quietly but audibly as he heard the words and put down his cup. 

"You think about it way too much", his voice went serious, "Yes it could go into worse things but thinking about it all the time doesn't help either" I looked helplessly into my tea which I held firmly in my hands. I didn't know what to say.

"Sometimes I think about everything until I'm just worried, I don't know." He looked at me concerned. "Vanadey..?" he mubled quiet.

That's true what he says, I think too much about even small things and got bad panic attacks. Philza knew about it and since the first panic attack he was always with me. When he took me in, I never left him. I was like a daughter to him. At the beginning I was still very skeptical and got scared but it subsided after a while. He didn't give me up as much as I tried to run away or kill him myself. I did it only because I was afraid I didn't understand anything at the time.It was quite strange when I tried to kill him. He laughed when he fended me off. I can still remember it exactly. When I tried to stab him with a dagger, I ran towards him and in seconds he took my arm and held me up. He looked straight into my eyes and said, "Too bad, you can't do it that fast. First you have to learn a lot before you can do it." Since then I have trained with him so much and respect him more than ever before.

He taught me about the history of this world. The history of L'manburg was made and that the freedom from them is in constant danger. I had asked him why we didn't help them and he just said that we don't help them because their government and the general system that L'manburg has is too corrupt. I never saw this corruption but you can see how all this stuff changed the people.

But after a while I noticed how much Wilbur changed. Sometimes I went to L'manburg with Phil and noticed again and again that Wilbur was changing. Dream is probably the reason. He literally stresses L'manburg with his attacks and threats. Dream wants to see white flags but Wilbur, Tommy, Tubbo and Fundy are far too stubborn to put up white flags on L'manburg's walls.

The permanent attacks try to keep them constantly but they always get setbacks. I once saw in the forest how Tubbo of Sapnap worded injured on the shoulder. Tommy fainted and yet Sapnap let them go. Probably because he wanted to bring devastating setbacks to everyone. They always do it that way..

Actually, dream is not too bad a person. He just likes to become directly brutal and manipulative. These are his almost hobbies. I had met them once and they were relatively nice to me even if you notice how they are in contrast to L'manburg. Their whole facial expressions change directly into the bad only at the mention of Tommy, Tubbo and the others.

Since then, Phil has always observed the conflicts and put forward theories about how they might turn out. He withdrew and stayed out of the problems. Only in the most necessary cases he helps but that has never really happened. Even if he is as a certain father role to Tommy, Tubbo and Wilbur.Sometimes when they tried to get Phil back to L'manburg, they called him a traitor because he said no. They exaggerated it. It's just a big deal for them.

I drank my tea and went back from my thoughts back into the real world. Phil was watching me all the time and took the cup directly from me when I drank it out. "You get another one that will make you think differently." He got up and went to the small kitchen. I put my head on the table and looked at the crows sitting on a specially attached pole for them. They looked so peaceful as if they were not doing anything to any soul but there were only 4 of the swarm. He has many crows. Some of them are hand tender but others rather stubborn and aggressive. If they were to be unleashed on people, many could be hurt. Phil would never do that but he doesn't want to take advantage of it for something like that and certainly doesn't want to hurt people in the first place. He is more likely to use them for messages he wants to send. For example, to Technoblade. A very good friend of Phil's. He is called by the others as a blood god which I never understood. I knew his deadly side but he can also be a big softie.A very good friend of Phil's. He is called by the others as a blood god which I never understood. I knew his deadly side but he can also be a big softie. I had only met him once, but it was long enough to get to know him. At least the basic part of him. We got along very well. He showed me different techniques with the sword and we trained together. I still couldn't do anything against him. He is really strong. 

"Here's your tea." I straightened up and accepted him gratefully. He smelled of green tea. Phil really knew everything about me.

Suddenly we heard a knock on the door. "Who could that be? Did you invite someone?" I asked and got up to open the door. "Wait", Suddenly Phil held my arm and looked at him confused, "I'll go." He let go of my arm and went to the door. Still confused, I stopped and looked at him. I heard the door close again. "Phil..?" I went to the window to see where he is. I saw Phil standing in front of the door with... Tubbo? "What is he doing here?" I continued to stare at him. He made a worried look. Have they been attacked again? Phil crossed his arms and shook his head. It seems to be something serious otherwise he would not make such a slightly annoyed look. Even if I couldn't hear it, I knew that Tubbo was still trying to persuade him to do something. Tubbo gritted his teeth and looked down at his shoes. He clenched his hands into fists. Phil still had the same pose and closed his eyes. After that, Tubbo left again. with a serious but slightly sad face. I watched him until he disappeared into the forest.

"Have you been watching us all the time?" I was startled when I heard Phil behind me. "Oh my- Phil don't scare me like that!" Phil laughed. I held my hand to my chest and exhaled. "Idiot" Phil took a breath and pretended it hurt him. "How could you?" he said ironically. "Yes, I was just wondering where you were going." I replied to his question. "They had problems with Dream again." he sighed and looked outside. "Maybe we should help them..?" I remembered the depressed face of Tubbo again.    "Have patience I think we will have to intervene in the near future. Tubbo said that Dream is slowly becoming impatient." Phil answered under his breath.  "For how long?" I asked. He turned to me and looked at me with a serious look "not too long I think" I became slightly nervous at the thought of being confronted with the conflict at some point. I know how strong Dream and his team are and that L'manburg is not really ready for it yet. "But luckily techno would be on our side. it might be hard to persuade him because he doesn't like it but I think he would help because of both of us" I didn't even think that techno would be on our side. But if you think about it would already be true after all, Phil and Techno are very good friends who would never let themselves down.

"So.. how would it work now?" I asked nervously. "I will send a message where it says that we will help but on our way, in short we help but rather from the distance and in emergencies." I nodded. "Techno will probably storm them directly," he said sarcastically. I laughed quietly at the thought that it was true.

"I'm going to send the message tomorrow with the crows and while you can prepare something ok?" Phil put his hand on my shoulder and smiled to calm me down. "don't worry Vanadey nothing great will happen" I gave him a sned-up look. "Are you already aware that we are literally fighting against Dream and we can theoretically die in the process?" I replied. "Oh come on where is the fun!" He laughed. I clapped my hand on my forehead. "You are sometimes real... Weird...", "Hey! I only stay positive", That's positive for him? This man can really pull the nerves blank.

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Chapter. 1 end..

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