T. Anthology

New Years Day

April 29, 2021

New Years Day

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January 1, 2018

I remember when you asked me to be your girlfriend. I remember when you told me that you love me with all your heart. I remember all the loud noises that the people were making. I remember all the colorful fireworks in the sky. That moment was the one I treasure the most.

"Will you be my girlfriend?"

"Yes! I'll be your girlfriend."

January 1, 2019

It was our first anniversary. Our families were both celebrating. You gave me flowers and gave me a pendant. It was beautiful.

The whole year of our relationship, we went through ups and downs. At least we're happy... at least we laughed together. But I know something.

"Happy New Year, babe!" you said over the phone.

January 1, 2020

Our second anniversary! Our relationship just turned two years old... supposedly. I don't even remember celebrating New Year.

I just cried.

I can't believe you broke up with me over the phone... during the celebration.

"I'm sorry it's over," that's what you said.

I was confused. I was upset. I asked you why and you answered, "It's not you, it's me." I already heard that a thousand times before from my exes. Is it really not because of me?

The whole day I was asking myself if I was really enough. If I was enough, why would all of you cheat on me?

You cheated. You cheated and I didn't even bother to speak about it. I was afraid that'll ruin our relationship. I was hoping you would change... but you didn't.

I guess we need to say our goodbyes now.

"Paalam..."

January 1,2021

I saw that you celebrated New Year with her. The two of you are living together happily. That's nice.

But honestly, I still can't get over you. It happened so fast. I didn't know it was already the end. The pendant you gave me always reminds me that we still might have a chance. I was hoping that we still have a chance.

But I realized it's actually the end.

You're happy with her now.

But don't get me wrong, I'm glad that you're happy with her.

I just wish I could find my happiness too. If only this heart gives me a chance... but it's already tired. My heart is already tired, it can't fight any more...

My heart is beating slowly and slowly...

"Thank...you..."

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