My Greatest Mistake

Our Last Goodbye💔

November 7th 2021
A Week Later ....
Alayah Makenzi POV

Today was Av funeral I been so sad and depressed I barely been eating or anything

Amory been with Ko lately I didn't want to feel like a dead beat mom but it was really hard to look at Av whole face on her

I'm so lost without Av I really need him Amory need him we was a family why would somebody take him away from me ...

I had over 100 missed calls from Mod I really wasn't in the mood to talk to anybody

I got up and got ready for Av funeral Amory was back home for the funeral she was in her room sleep

I got dressed Av funeral colors was royal blue and silver

After I got dressed I got Amory dressed

She was still asleep while I washed her up and got her dressed

I laid her back down and broke down Av please we need you

The funeral line meet up was at my house

I heard a knock on the door and I grabbed amory and my stuff

I walked downstairs and sat Amory in her car seat I strapped her in and picked the car seat up

I opened the door and was greeted by the funeral home

My eyes was so puffy red and low I looked at everybody in disbelief Av is really gone

Ko walked up and grabbed Amory car seat out my hand

The funeral home passed out obituaries and begin to start the prayer

After the prayer it was time to leave I got inside one of the funeral cars with Ko, Amory and Q

Q hugged onto me tight and told me he love me

I told him I loved him too and burst out crying

I couldn't believe Av really was gone forever

When we arrived to the church everybody begin to get out cars it was so many people Av was loved by everyone

Baby Aidan and Simoné got out one of the other funeral cars

She looked at me I looked at her .. I don't know what was simoné beef with me but now that Av is gone I would love for our kids to have a bond

I walked over and picked up Aidan he was old enough to understand what was going on he kept saying da da

I put him back down and walked away with tears in my eyes I couldn't handle this much longer

The funeral service begin to start

When it was time to view the body me Simoné amory and Aidan all walked up there together

Ko walked behind me just in case she had to grab amory

I showed amory Av "this is your daddy he loved you very much he was going to make you the most happiest spoiled rotten princess in the world"

I begin to cry Ko grabbed amory and went and sat down

I fell on top of Av and screamed loud "nooo Av come back I need you we need you your kids need you baby please come back"

I stumbled back and everything with black I woke up outside of the church seeing a man in a all black suit pouring water on me

I grasped for air and immediately asked where was my child

I got myself together and walked back into the church the funeral was over I saw Q holding on to the casket yelling

I tried my best to comfort him Q and Av was right hand mans I feel his pain I'll lose it without Ko

The burial site was the worst Simoné tried to compete with me in a damn crying contest I wasn't stunting her she is ignorant asf

She is never going to grow up

She thought it was her place to take the blanket that the funeral home offer I decided to let Q get it

Ko took Amory home with her when she dropped me off

I walked upstairs and laid in my bed looking at pictures of me and Av

I begin to cry I wish this was all a dream I wish I could wake up and feel Av arm over me

Av please we need you

Updates might be a li slow bare with me I'm working on another book ❤️