Please stay by my side ( a Miraculous fanfiction) FINISHED

Chapter 8

~Marinette's POV~

Three days had passed since the doctor told me about my illness. Three long awful days.

I'm lonely...at school and at home. I have to struggle with this stupid illness alone.

Sure i still have Chat and the kwamiis but chat doesn't know yet and the kwamiis get very very emotional when i talk about my cancer. I saw Tikki crying for three hours straight because she thinks that I'm going to die soon and honestly....i want to die already.

I'm just in pain, emotionally and physically. I want to go to sleep and never woke up again but I'm a fighter and i need to fight for my kitty and for my kwamiis.

Who knows maybe after Hawkmoth is defeated me and Chat will date, then we'll get married, then we have kids or should I say kittens! That would be nice but i have a feeling that I'm not going to live through that...

I still need to tell him about my cancer and we'll have to look for another ladybug too... I can't fight in this condition very well and the doctor said that if i feel worst then I'll have to stay in the hospital.

So if I'll stay in the hospital i can't go out of it afterwards meaning that i can't be Ladybug.

Chat Noir would be devastated i know it for sure. I'm afraid that he'll stop being a super hero if i quit but Paris needs him... I need him to fight for our city after im gone.

But how am I even suppose to tell him this! I can't just go and tell him " hey chat I'm going to die in five months, i think, so we need a new ladybug!"....

The truth is...I'm not that scared to tell him about my cancer... I'm afraid that I'll have to tell him who I am under the mask and he'll hate me too... He is the only human being that i have right now and losing him it's too much...

" Marinette? Why are you awake it's 4 in the morning...you need sleep" Tikki said in a tired voice looking at me.

" I can't sleep..." I said giving her a tired smile. I can sleep the doctor give me some medicine and that makes me fall asleep easily but i have a lot of nightmare, i can't sleep through them.

" Can you at least try? I know you are tired and you need sleep too so please at least try to sleep for a few hours" Tikki said flying to me and sat on my chest where she fell asleep again.

" Ok I'll do it for you" i whispered to her. I still have three hours until i need to get up for school so I'll try to sleep maybe i won't have nightmares now.

And surprisingly i was right, no more nightmares that night. I had a peaceful sleep. I didn't even dream.

But unfortunately i had to get up from my comfortable bed when the alarm started ringing.

I'm very tired, i don't even want to go to school. I want to stay in my kitties arms, i fell protected and loved when I'm by his side.

But i need to go, i have to go... i don't want to see Adrien's disappointed eyes again...and the bullying...

It hurts so much to see my former friends be like this twords me and now Adrien just stands there and looks doesn't do anything doesn't say anything.

I sighed getting up from my bed, the kwamiis quickly comes to me.

" Good morning dear guardian!" They said together.

" Morning guys" i said sleepily. I walked into my bathroom and opened the shower, letting the water to get warm and nice.

I undressed myself and looked into the mirror, this begin to be my routine each morning to look in the mirror to see every bruise and cut on my body.