lovesick || jaywon

chap 9.

"fuck jungwon. why the hell did you have to say that ?! do you know how much he sacrifice himself for you ?!" sunghoon shouted at him. everyone was gathered at heeseung apartment. jay is at the hospital with jake and heeseung. its been 3 hours since jay fainted. the doctor mentioned that he was having high fever and also lacking nutritions so they had to put in wires.

when sunghoon found out, he boiled anger. he knows how much jay love jungwon. he has observed the changes jay has made just to have jungwon notice him. he knew jay was lovesick. everything was going well after jay gave him letters and gifts.

but it all went downhill when jungwon said he hate jay.

"do you realised what you said ? so was it all an act ?! did the hug mean nothing ? damn it, answer me oh god." sunghoon screamed in frustration, hitting the counter so hard, startling sunoo and ni-ki.

"hey calm down.." ni-ki whispered, patting sunghoon's back.

"HOW CAN I ?! your bestfriend literally hurt my bestfriend, whos literally like a brother to me!" sunghoon argued back. jungwon stood there quiet as his head hang low, staring at the floor feeling guilty.

he didnt mean to hurt jay. he really love him. he didnt want jay to know that he love him. he was afraid. he thought the day wont come. but it did.

he was afraid that the people he love alot, will get hurt because of him.

he has done it once, and now. he did it again.

his eyes became blurry as his eyes welled up. he pressed his trembling lips to a line, trying not to cry.

"what do i expect ? jungwon was just fooling arou–"

"no." jungwon cut sunghoon off.

"i swear. i wasnt fooling around. i mean everything i've done. it wasnt all an act. the hugs means alot to me. its special to me. i fucking love him gosh. i love him so much, that i got so afraid to open up. i didnt mean to hurt him like that. i cherish every moment with him with my whole heart sunghoon. trust me when i say this. i love him so much, i care for him. but i cant seem to open it up. im so scared to lose my love ones. i lost one, i cant afford to lose another one." jungwon collapse on his knees as he cry heavily, his palms covering his face and his breathing were heavy.

"what if i lost him, sunghoon ? i've never been so happy in my whole life. i always thought love doesnt exist" he continued.

"but after meeting jay, i finally realised it. i thought happiness is useless but–" he paused as his breathe hitch.

"–meeting jay was the happiest thing i've ever experienced. im trying so hard to open up. im going to say it for the last time. i love jay, i love park jongseong and i swear i really do" jungwon whimpered, looking at the three with his red glossy eyes, nose red and runny. swollen lips and cheeks.

sunghoon eyes drop a little. he knows. he knows that jungwon is being honest. he cool himself down as he breathe in and out.

"then go to him you idiot." sunghoon said. jungwon looked at him and nodded vigorously. he quickly get his phone, wallet wore the hoodie the jay gave to him then rush to the hospital.

as soon as he reach the hospital, he quickly ran to the ward he was in. as he opened the door, he saw jay lying down there weakly. the two older was just sitting down on the sofa , staring at jungwon. one says disappointment, other one says anger.

jungwon slowly make his way to jay as he kneeled down. he held onto jay's hand and look at him. sadness overwhelmed him as he sees wires and a small tube in his right arm. his eyes welled again but even more then before.