It was 28 of October, 22:51 pm. I haven't heard from you in a while, last time we spoke, you yelled at me, you told me, you will break me and make my life a living hell, you called me names. Why now? I kept my cool last time, while you yelled and broke my heart in pieces, I smiled and cried, believing that the person I one's loved really died. But that day you send me a broken heart 💔. I was confused and mad at the same time, I really wanted to reply, but i was afraid. Afraid off rejection and hurt again, because the last time you texted me out of no where, you said, it was a mistake and you kicked me out of your house middle of the night all alone. So I didn't reply. I cried my self to sleep instead. Friday night I went out with my friends, trying to have a good time again, it's been awhile, and who do I see, you. And I just broke down, you didn't see me, I kept my distance the whole night, and when I decided, it was time for me to go home, I took the long way, carefully between cares, building's and finally when I thought, you will not see me, you drove by, and looked me in my eyes. A tear fall down, and I rushed to my care. The next day, I decided to stay at home, because I new you will be out that day. And I was right because you posted, getting ready for partying. I still stayed at home. And when I thought It couldn't get any worse, you texted me "it hurts (pure girl)!" But when I replied, you will blocked me. So I gave up, until you emailed me, "can you pick me up, I'm not feeling well" I called you, asked you where you were, and the only thing you kept asking me was, who I was with, thinking, I was with someone else.. I rushed out, to find you walking in the rain, inthe middle of the road, all drunk and sloppy. And when you sat in the car, your head was hanging. I looked at you and thought, who are you. I was scared of you, I felt like sitting next to a stranger. I didn't let you see it but I cried. And when we finally, arrived at you're place, you gave me attitude, saying I don't need your help, I can walk by my self, asking me, why Im helping you, and when I replied "because I'm a good person" you laughed at me. I cried again. I walked you in, asked you if you needed anything, and you gave me attitude once again and said "I'm home, what can you do more" I turned my back and walked out. The moment I got in my car, i screamed, I screamed so loud, cried my heart out, felt like my soul was tearing apart in pieces and while I'm drove away, thinking why I deserve all this pain! You called! Asking me where I was ?? Like I never left you're house and then you asked me, if I was coming ? And then I asked you?! If you needed me to come!! If you were OK! So I drove back in a hurry, concerned! And when I came in, you was standing there alright, told me to stay, just give you some comfort. I stayed, you wanted to watch tv, but you're phone was dead soddenly, and you're charger was with you're friend. I took you in my arms, listened to you all night, made you laugh again, comfort you. and you just kept trying to kiss me, take my clothes off, even when I told you no, many times. You tried over and over again, even with force. You kept trying. And you ended with having what you wanted. After all talk about how much you missed me and loved me, how it's been awfully with out me, how much it hurt not speaking with me. How you just can't see you self with someone els, speaking with someone els. You even cried and smiled. Saying "pure heart is back", holding my arm so tight, afraid for me to leave, you convinced me. You got what you wanted, because all what you said was how I was really feeling about you, and I believed in you once again.
The next day.
They will hurt you. Tell you they love you, tell you how much you mean too them, but in reality, you are just there hope for life and enjoyment in a second. And when they are done playing with you're pure heart, they will convince you, that it was a mistake, tell you, if you didn't tell them, you were dating someone els, they probably will have asked for a second chance, even when they confirm that, they also, are speaking with other girls and someone who is close to you, even when you confess that, telling them you are dating someone els was just something you said ? Just because. There story will change, and they will take there words back and say you misunderstood, they didn't mean, they will come back because it was a weak moment, where they forgot, why they couldn't be with you. They will tear up while telling you why it happened and how sorry they are. And there life is just too much right now, they have too much hurt, and they love you to much, too bring you in the mess. And you will believe them, because you are the girl with the pure heart. you still want to believe, that they are just trying to "protect" you. They hold you're hand, look you in your eyes and say sorry, they tell you it hurts them more then it hurt you, telling you, it's not you, you're not bad, you are all what they ever could ask for, it's them. They hug you, tell you just cry I know it hurts, but not a single tear in there eyes, they jokes in one minut and the next, replaying why it's not gonna work, you look at them with broken heart and they don't see it, because the only thing they are foucesd on, is making you believe once again, they walked you out to the door, hugging you with their head down, as if they are the once hurting inside, like they were the once just got taken advantage of. meanwhile, there phone is turned off, so the true on this phone will not pop off when they are speaking to you, and they explain is, that his friend has his, charger right? because when you sad in the car, and believing every word they said, you regretting how you spoke to them, how you told them to leave you alone! So you texted them, and they replied in a sec, after you just left, you smile while a tear drops down, you look at the phone an the hole conversation you just had with them soddenly, takes a turn, every word they said, but with a different meaning, how they told you to pick them up, from "that bar", but you're friends saw, his friends in a different bar? How they convinced you to come and take care off them because they don't have anybody els but you? How they called you minutes before, they claimed there phone was dead? How they! Made you believe, that they where in that state off drunk because off you! And the pain of missing you! every step and action they took was a lie and the story you just heard becomes a nightmare off lies and hurt!! you keep smiling because in your messages you said sorry, you said, you always gonna be there for them, you just a call behind. And if they anytime needed anything, they could count on you .. so sad right? baby girl keep smiling. It's okay.
