Dard Bhara Pyaar

Part 4 she loves me

And she just wiped the tears swimming in her eyes putting the papers away from her side. And here armaan just reached in nearby park and just slumped on the bench there with his head in his hands as he don't even understands what is happening what a irony he comes here to relax his mind and soul and then he gets his best friend here he is happy but now hearing the things from riddhima's moth his life is laughing at him more and more questions and such a mess in his life that even don't understands what is going on in his life and that makes his head bursting
A''kya keh rahii thi basket kii vo mujhse pyaar karti hain humehsa se hii tou oosnein mujhe kabhie kaha kyoon nahin kii vo mujhe chahati hain pyaar karti hain mujhse tou mujhe kyoon nahin bataya jab hum saath the hum tou best friend the tou oosnein itnii badii baat kyoon chupayi mujhse aur aagar vo mujhse pyaar karti hain tou mujhe bina kuchh kahen bina koi message chode bina mujhe mile challi kyoon gayyi thi vo aur maine ose kaunsa dard diyya hain jiskii vo baat kar rahii hain maine tou ose kabhie hurt nahin kiyya ose hurt karne se pehle main marna pasand karunga vo merii zindagi hain yeh mujhe baad meiin samajh aya kii maine ose kitna chaha oos is peeche 1 and half year meiin mujhe bas vohii tou yaad ati thi aapni basket aur mujhe ehsas hua kii I tou love you yaar aur aaj jab tumhe yahan dekha tou poora yakeen ho gayya kii tumse hii pyaar karta hun jo sukoon milla mujhe milla mere dill ko milla tumhe yahan dekh kar maine shweta ke dhokhe ke baad dekha kii oos pyaar meiin tou kabhie vo baat thi hii nahin oos se achi tou humari dosti thi starting meiin laga kii main kaise pyaar ko dosti se compare kar sakta hun khud se ladta raha main par aaj ehsaas hua kii kitna chhata hun main tumhe tmhe john ke saath dekh kar mujhe bahut takleef ho rahii hain riddhima jo jagah sirff merii thi vo tum kisii aur ko kaise den sakti ho after all I am your best friend riddhima how could you do this naraz tou mujhe tumse hona chahiye par riddhima tum kyoon mujhse naraz ho itnii maine kya kiyya hain kii tum mujhe ignore karna chahti ho aaj bhi tumne john se baat karte hue mera nam nahin liyya but mujhe ache se pata haiin kii tum sirff merii baat kar rahii ho mera dill yehii gawahi den raha haiin par aisaa kya hain jo maine hii kar diyya hain aur mujeh hii iskaa ehsaas nahin hain tumhe mere sawalon ka zawab dena padega riddhima aabki baar tum mujhe bina bataye nahin jaugi riddhima main tumhe jaane nahin doonga riddhima''
And armaan just keeps on sitting there only with so many questions running in his mind and then finally he moved towards his hotel thinking he will surely asked riddhima everything and anything in morning itself.
Next morning armaan first thing after completing his work in hospital went to riddhima's cabin to talk with her his mind is not at all in peace he just wants the answer to his questions and as soon he reached to her cabin he knocked but getting no response he moved inside and saw riddhima is not there he thinks to wait for her for sometime but she did not comes for an hour or so he just spotted a nurse coming inside her cabin for putting some files so he asked from her and
A''can you please tell me where is Dr. Riddhima Gupta''
N''sir your are mistaken this is not the cabin of Dr. Reedhema Gupta in fact there is no Dr.Reedhema Gupta working here its only Dr.  Riddhima's cabin''
And that makes armaan shocked why the hell she is not using her surname at all as far he is remember her full name is Riddhima Gupta but what he don't knows it that the very much reality.
A''oh yea sorry can you tell me where is Dr. Riddhima''
Armaan then corrected himself and asked her and nurse replied that
N''sorry sir she is not here for maybe till night she has three surgeries and right now even she is busy in her surgery''
She said and armaan just looked at her for a minute and then he just
A''thank you so much''
And the nurse left and armaan left too thinking he will talk with her tomorrow as today she is busy. Next two days passed like this only whenever armaan tried to go to riddhima she is busy and most of the time he is busy too and somewhere he knows this is all because of John as he knows he is keeping his promise to lessen their encounters fully. But today armaan has her enough attitude he today every close will talk with him and he barged inside her cabin as he knows when will be there as it's her time to go home and yes she is there packing her stuff he entered inside and locked the door after entering inside the cabin and riddhima who is lost in her thoughts doing her work and she startled as she heard door closed and as she turned she saw armaan on the door she for a minute is shocked to see him there, from the past 2 days she is successful somewhere avoiding him as John did actually busied her and him in some work and in evening too he is dropping her home as riddhima is not up o herself seeing armaan so close to her, she sometimes wants to go to him and slapped him hard and asked why he did that with her and then somewhere she wants to go and just hugged him tightly and cried her heart out and tells him that she loves him and can't stay without him how much she missed him but alas she can't able to do anything as she controlled herself because she don't wants to hurt him and herself more if he don't wants to live with her then she can't force him after all she loved him so much that his happiness is all matters to him and then suddenly her chain of  thoughts breaks with one voice as
A''oye basket kahan kho gayyi ho tum maine kabse tumhe bola raha haiin par tum zawab hii nahin den rahii ho mujhe hain kya''
He asked and riddhima looked at him and then she knows she have to reply him off course she can't escape him and then as
R''nahin armaan kuch bhi nahin acha tum yahan koi kam tha kya tumhe mujhse armaan han''
She asked while not meeting his gaze at all as she knows he can surely guess what is going in his mind and then he just speaks up
A''kyoon basket nahin aa sakta kya main tumhare cabin meiin han''
He asked while moving closer to him as she is shocked hearing that intense voice of his and she just calmed herself well she tried to calm herself so she speaks while her heart beats raising with each and every second
R''umm nahin armaan aisii koi baat nahin hain maine bas isiliyye poocha kyunki mujhe laga kii tum aab tak shayad chale gayye hoge tumhari shift tou finish ho gayyi hain naa so bas aisee''
She said and armaan looked at her he knows her whenever she gets nervous then only she gives so much of explanation and then he
A''han actually shift tou finish ho gayyi hain merii but maine socha kii aapni Best Friend ke saath thoda time spend kar lun vo tou aaj kal bhull hii gayyi hain mujhe so socha main hii aa jaun''
He said stretching on the word Best Friend' and riddhima feels a sharp pain in her heart as when he himself breaks every relation they why is faking just the friendship she wants to run from there and she just as
R''umm nahin armaan aisa kuch nahin hain actually work load kuch zayda hii hain naa aaj kal so isiliyye achaa aab armaan main chalti hun jo I mean john mera wait kar raha hoga gharr jaane ke liyye main tumse kal milti hun armaan bye take care han''
She said as she picked up her bag and some files and was about to move as she has no stamina to face him but hearing John's name armaan becomes angry he is till now controlling himself thinking he will talk with her calmly but as if she is hell bends on testing his patience first he is already messed up because of the revelations of her feelings and then he holds her wrist as she tried to walk past away from him taking riddhima in shock she was not at all expected this move from him and armaan seeing that confusion in her eyes he holds her wrist more firmly and then he speaks calmly yet painfully as he speaks taking her in shock with his words as
A''kya time aa gayya hain naa riddhima kii tumhare paas mere liyye bilkul bhi time nahin raha aur 1 waqt tha kii humari dosti time ko bhie peeche chod detii thi oos waqt tum mere liyye aur main tumhare liyye sabse important hua karta tha khair mere liyye tou tum aaj bhi sabse pehle ati ho par aab main shayad tumhare liyye important nahin raha riddhima kyoon aakhir basket kyoon dur dhakel rahii ho aapnein armaan ko aapnein best friend ko khud se main aaj bhi tumhara vahii armaan hun riddhima''
He said and riddhima looked at him as he is gazing intently in her eyes she saw that pain in his eyes but can't he see the pain in her eyes and then riddhima just speaks up trying to get out from his grip as he
R''aaj kal tou insan bhi badal jaate hain armaan tou waqt tou fir badaln kii hii cheej hain khair chodo innsab baton ko excuse me mujhe jaana hain gharr bahut der ho rahii hain armaan so please armaan if you won't mind excuse me''
She said and armaan can feels that coldness in her voice and that makes armaan angry here is trying to talk with her so smoothly but what she is doing just running away from him giving all the non sense not even telling him anything and keeps on running like this makes him more irritated and frustrated why she can't tell him his mistake and as riddhima is trying to get her wrist from his grip armaan holds her wrist more firmly and within a second he banged her in the wall and riddhima looked at him his eyes are all red due to anger as if his whole blood is just in red she shuddered seeing him that much angry she never seen him angry like this just one time but that time she can't see him properly but she knows if he angry then it is very much tough to handle him and she just don't wants to face angry armaan and she just tried to escape from him but no and then next moment she finds herself in between his arms as she is in cage and armaan then speaks looking dangerously in her green almond shaped eyes as riddhima shuddered seeing his blue eyes filled with rage and she just
A''kyoon kar rahii ho riddhima tum yeh sab mere saath aakhir kyoon maine kya mistake kar dii naraz tou mujeh tumse hona chahiye tha kii tum mujhe 3 years pehle bina kuch kahen bina milen chod kar chale gayyi thi 1 baar bhi nahin milli aapnein oos best friend se jo tumhare sabse close tha batana zaruri nahin samjha ose kii tum jaa rahii ho ose chod kar yeh bhi nahin bataya kii oos se aisii kaunsi Galati ho gayyi kii tum aisee ose punish karke jaa rahii ho maine tou humesha socha kii merii basket laut aayegi par tum tou ayi hii nahin riddhima kabse aur aaj bhi jab milli ho mujeh 3 years ke baad tou aisee behave kar rahii ho jaise jaanti hii nahin ho kii main hun kaun 1 stranger kii tarah milti ho tum mujhe aakhir kis baat kii saza den rahii ho mujhe merii best friend hokar bhi tum john ke itnein close kaise ja sakti ho tum hii kehti thi naa kii merii jagah ttumhri ziindagi meiin koi nahin len sakta tou aab kya ho gayya han riddhima kahan kho gayyi merii basket kahan kho gayyi merii riddhima jo sirff aur sirff merii hua karti thi aab kya hua ose kyoon nahin milti tum mujhe pehle jaise riddhima kyoon dur jaana chahti ho mujhse aakhir mujhe kis baat kii saza den rahii ho tum maine kiyya kya hain basket kam se kam yeh tou bata do mujhe aaj jab main tumhare saamne khada hun tumhara best friend itnein salon baad tumhe ghutan hotii hain mujhe dekh kar kyoon riddhima kyoon jo armaan tumhari honthon kii hansi thi aaj tum ose armaan ke saaamne ane se bhi katrati ho aakhir aisaa kaunsa dard den diyya hain maine tumhe kii tum mujhe aisee saza den rahii ho riddhima mujeh mera kasoor tou bata hii sakti ho naa tum riddhima kya kar diyya hain maine kii merii best freidn itnii dur chali gayyi hain mujhse please riddhima answer me I need you merii best friend''
He said while whole broken in between his tears he is so close to her face that riddhima can feels his tears falling  on her face even and she wants to wipe his tears but how world she when he becomes the reason of her tears too and as the tears were flowing from her eyes too she was not at all expecting this after doing everything how he can blame her for everything and seeing her quite armaan gripped her shoulders tightly and pulled her closer to himself while riddhima's bag and files everything fell from his hands and she looked at him with fear and pain in her eyes
A''zawab do riddhima kyoon nahin mill sakti mujeh merii best friend kyoon tum merii basket nahin banana chahti kyoon tum mujhse bas dur jaana chahti ho aaj tumhe mere saare sawalon ka zawab dena hoga kyoon I need you riddhima aur kyoon tum aaj aapna armaan aapna best friend nahin chahiye aapni zidnagi meiin aaj tumhe mere har sawal ka zawab dna hoga batana hoga tumhe kii kyoon mere pas nahin ana chahti tum kii humari dosti tumhe burden lagne lagii hain tumhe riddhima tumhe batana hoga aur tumhe merii basket ko mujhe lauatana hoga riddhima batao I just needs my best friend at any cost tumhe vaapis ana hoga riddhima I needs answers riddhima tell me''
He said gripping her shoulders more tightly making her winced in pain and seeing his behave how he is demanding the answers as if he don't knew anything riddhima just jerked his hands away from herself taking her in shock and then she just shouted on top of her lungs as she just
R''tumhe zawab chahiye naa armaan kii kyoon tumhari basket kho gayyi kahin kyunki tumne ose khud mar daala hain aapnein haathon se yes armaan you yourself killed her aur tum tou aise baat kar rahein ho jaise kuch pata hii nahin hain tumhe armaan jaise jo kuch bhi hua tum nahin jaante ose han armaan bolo naa''
She said and armaan looked at her seeing her so much angry and hurt he never saw his basket so angry she is always soft spoken girl and now seeing her and hearing her he is so confused what he don't knows what she is saying he is not at all getting it and he
A''nahin riddhima mujhe nahin pata kii tum kya bol rahii ho han''
He said while trying to comes closer to her but riddhima jerked his hands away feeling disgusted the man whom she loved so much whom she considered her best friend after spoiling her life still has the audacity to say this so she barked in anger and frustration
R''yeah right armaan mallik ko tou kabhie kuch pata ho hii nahin sakta naa vo tou iss diuniya meiin sabse masoom hain naa jise kabhie kuch pata nahin hota naa chahe vo sab kuch kar den naa''
She mocked at him and armaan is now getting more and more confused with her words what he did what he knows and then he
A''lekin riddhima mujhe kya nahin pata hain batao tou sahii naa''
He said and again this sentence infuriated her more and she just holds his collar in her hands and pulled him and just barked at him in so much anger
R''fine kya nahin pata tumhe kii maine tumhe 3  years pehle kyoon chalii gayyi thi tou main batatai hun kyunki mere dadu ke heart attack hua tha aur I was the only one that time in India so rushed there in middle night only that's why won't able to inform you chahe maine aapni friendship ka saara farz nibhaya shweta ke pas letter choda kyunki itni raat ko boys hostel meiin nahin aa sakti thi naa oos letter meiin saara reason bataya aapnein jaane ka aur aapna number bhi diyya contact ke liyye par tumne tou mujhe kabhie contact kiyya hii nahin naa hii mere pas jab main yahan akeli thi when I needs you the most akeli pad gayyi thi main aur tum you just don't care even aur jab maine tumhe call kiyya you just changed your number tum mujhse itni nafrat karne lage the kya armaan merii aapnein liyye feelings jaan kar kii I love you kii tumne aapna number hii change kar liyya maine tou kaha tha naa it's ok aagar tum mujhe pyaar nahin karte ho it's just my feeling for you par armaan ko yeh sab kaise pata hoga nahin aur maine nahin aapni friendship nibhayi tumhare saath main hii glaat hun armaan tou kabhie galat ho nahin sakta naa kyunki ose tou kuch pata hii nahin tha naa armaan riddhima galat hain armaan humesha kii tarah kyunki vo hii tou tumhra intezar kar rahi thi naa kii you will contact her naa armaan''
She said and armaan looked at her bewildered with her answers and questions same time which letter he never received her any letter from him and if he would why he will not go there when he is so much in mad state to finding any news about her and then he
A''riddhima basket merii baat soono mujhe koi letter nahin milla''
He said and riddhima looked at him she just wants to slap him how he can do this with her he is still not accepting that and that infuriated her more and
R''armaan mujhe nahin pata tha kii tum itna badal  jaoge armaan aakhir kyoon armaan sirff main tumse pyaar karti hun isiliyye mujhe itnii badii saza den rahein ho tum armaan main''
She said breaking into tears and armaan looked at her no he didn't do anything ho he can punished her when he himself is getting punished every day and then he comes closer and just speaks
A''nahin riddhima basket sachi mujhe kuch nahin pata main''
And riddhima just pushed him away and then she opened the zipper of her coat and then she put her hand near her neck and then revealed him something which makes him shudder as he saw  Mangalsutra
R''oh han tumhe tou shayad yeh bhi nahin pata hoga kii 6 months pehle tumne mujhse shaadi karii thi aur shaadi kii raat hii mujhe mre gharr jaane ko bol diiyya tha kuch yaad nahin naa tumhe tou yahan bhi shayad main hii jhooth bol rahii hun aur yeh tumhara khandani mangalsutra mere gale meiin aapnein aap aa gayya naa ( she said while showing him the black beaded mangalsutra with diamond pendant) aur yeh sindoor bhi mujhe aisee hii lagane kii aadat lag gayyi tumne tou bhara hii nahin tha naa yeh aapnein nam ka merii Maang meiin 6 months pehle (she said while parting her hairs little where he can saw that little pinch of Sindoor in her maang) aur saat phere bhi tumne nahin liyye naa mere saath oos raat ko tumhare bade se marriage palace grand resort meiin aur yeh ring bhi tumne mujhe nahin pehnayi naa armaan jab humne vo milk-ring vaala game khela tha jisemin tum jeet gayye the naa (she said while showing him the ring in her ring finger and) aur shaadi kii pehle hii raat ko tumne tou mujhe kaha hii nahin kii tumne yeh shaadi dawab meiin aakar kari hain tum mujhe kuch nahin den sakte main subh hote hii aapnein gharr chalii jaun aur kabhie tumhe aapna chehra naa dikhaon hain naa hii kabhie tumhare saamne aaun humare raaste aalag hain aur aalag hii rahenge tum oonhein kabhie nhain jodna chahte merii zindagi vaise hii arhegi jaise oos shaadi se 1 din pehle thi aur tumhari bhi yeh sab tou tumne muhe kabhie kaha hii nahin maine aapnein aap sun liyya armaan hain naa yehii kehna chahte ho naa tum han''
She said and armaan is numb hearing that words from her there is no way she is telling a lie the Mangalsutra, Sindoor, Ring everything she is stating right and the words she is saying the same words which he said to his wife in their wedding night only and this revelations makes him dead what does that means riddhima is his wife his best friend riddhima is his wife he pained her only and she actually pushed her away from his life with his own hands and just seeing her crying his soul cried and the words escaped from his mouth only with so much pain
A''matlab riddhima tum merii biwii ho merii biwii riddhima''
He said more to himself and riddhima looked at him with wide eyes what did he meant as if he comes to know today only and somewhere hearing that biwi word from him makes her peaceful but then she registered her words and she just picked some papers from the floor and  just handled him while saying that
R''han riddhima tumhari biwi jis se tum aalag hona chahte ho jise tumne divorce ka notice bheja hain Dr.Armaan Mallik vohii riddhima hun main riddhima armaan mallik''
She said and armaan looked at the divorce papers in his hands which his lawyer has to send his wife and yes and then riddhima
R''i guess aab maine aapke saare sawalon ka zawab den diyya hain aab aap please mujhe jaane dijiye chinta mat kijiye main aapke in divorce papers par sign kar dooongi aur kabhie aapko aapna chehra nahin dikhaongi main so you can take it easy bye''
And without giving any chance to him to speak she rushed away from there without getting anything with her just pain and tears in her eyes with a broken heart and here armaan just slides on floor and he looked at the divorce papers in his hands which showing Riddhima Mallik and Armaan Mallik he has so much tears in his eyes and as he
A''yeh kya ho gayya merii shaadi merii basket se hui thi aur maien ose kitna dard diyya humesha se hii maien socha kii vo mujhe bina mille chale gayyi par vo mere liyye tou letter chod kar gayyi thi aur main ose hii galat samjhta raha aur aab bhi vo merii zindagi meiin jab laut kar ayi hain merii biwii ban kar maine ose tab bhi kho diyya aur dard deta chala gayya vo samjhati hain maine yeh sab ooske saath jan boojh kar kyiyya kyunki vo mujhse pyaar karti hain aur main oos se nahin nahinmain tou oos se bahut pyaar karta hun main ose yeh bata kar hii rahunga main ose kabhie hurt nahin kar sakta yeh sab anjane meiin hua hain maine kuch bhi jan boojh kar nahin kiyya jaanta hun doshi hun main ooska par sab maine yeh jan boojh kar nahin kiyya naa par nahin mujhe basket ko batana hoga kii mujhe vo letter kabhie milla hii nahin aur main itnein dard meiin tha kii maine dekha hii nahin tha kii merii shaadi kis se hui hain par aab main aapni saari galatiyan sudharna chahta hun main ose bahut khush rakhunga ooske is dard bhare pyaar meiin khushiya bikher doonga main oos se bahut pyaar karta hun aur aab vo kahin nahin jaayegi yeh shaadi jo mazboori thi aab kabhi nahin tutegi hum humesha saath meiin rahenenge main ooski saari galat fehmiyan dur kar doonga jaanta hun kii merii basket aaj bhi mujhse bahut pyaar karti hain aur aab main ose bataunga kii ooska armaan bhi sirff oos se pyaar karta hain aab ose saare haq doong main patni honein ke jo maine oos se cheen liyye the aur yeh divorce kabhie nahin hoga armaan riddhima ek the aur ek rahenge i will make you mine basket again riddhima''
He said in determined voice  and he torn the divorce papers in pieces as he will be with his wife now no needs of this hing as he knows what he has to do now he now as thinks all the things falls in place why its only Riddhima because she is no more Dr.Riddhima Gupta now and she cant use Dr.Riddhima Mallik and he don't gives her the right of his wife's so but now he will give her all her rights and the love she deserved he deserved and the happiness and will solve all her misunderstandings.
The night passed as the night is calm for armaan as he knows what he has to do but for riddhima it is the longest night as she once again broken seeing armaan's behave that he can even agree on the things happened in between then she cried whole night how he can do this with her how he can punished her like this way. She just feels her armaan is actually lose somewhere and this is some another armaan whom she don't even knows.