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My baby boy :(

Hey guys, I know I haven't really updated this in a while, but I just wanted to say something. Everything has been so difficult lately. 9th grade is great, I have good grades, my friends are more open and we talk more, I was finally in a great mindset and was really happy. But everything nice has to come to an end. Snickers is gone. He's been missing for more than a month and I'm loosing hope on finding him, we looked everywhere. He was outside like any other day, enjoying the sun and rolling in the rocks, being my little rock boy. And I knew he wouldn't want to come in until later that night, so I didn't bring him inside. I should've, I really should've. I just want to go back in time and bring him inside, to hug him and cry into his fur. I want to give him little forehead kisses and boop his nose, I want to rub his belly and snuggle up with him at night. I want to hear his little bell on his collar jingle as he runs to me, I want to feel his little paws and play with his tail and ears when he's cuddled up next to me. I want to run outside and hear him chasing me, I want to hear his meows outside my door whenever he wanted in to sleep. I want to watch YouTube videos with him late on Friday nights.  I just want to see him again. I can't even think about him without crying, even right now I am. I'm so tired, I want my baby back. This is some kind of nightmare, a nightmare that won't end, a nightmare that I was so afraid of before but now that it's happened I am petrified. I can't even say goodbye to him, I didn't get to tell him that I love him so much. I don't even know if he's alive, if he's hurt or freezing outside. I don't even know what happened to him. I just want to hear his little meows outside my window again, I just want to wake up at 3 am and go downstairs to let him in. I just want to do anything with him. I cry every night, my bed still smells like him, my clothes still have his fur on them, even after being washed many times. Please bring my baby boy back, my little baby boy, my sink boy, my rock boy, bean boy, my lil fluff ball. Please bring him back to me. I just want my baby back, please, please I'll do anything. I just want to see his happy little face, I want to hug him and rub our noses together. Bro I can't live my life without him, he was supposed to graduate with me, he was supposed to be there when I was sad, I was supposed to let him in at night. We were supposed to be there together, we were supposed to always stick together, he was my little buddy. Just look at him, my sweet baby boy.

I miss him so much, I miss him so freaking much. My poor baby boy, I just want him home snuggled up with me so he's not cold. He doesn't like the cold. :(