Stay ~ (Reki x Langa)

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Langa POV:

I lay in the small hospital bed holding Reki in my arms. The thin curtains were open and the moon's light poured into the lonely room.

I sighed and looked at the stars. The sky was clear and I longed for the cool autumn breeze. Then, I got an idea.

Carefully, I got out of bed and crept through the door and into the hallway. I opened the big double doors and walked up to the roof.

I laid down and looked up at the stars. The chilly fall air gently blew across my face. I closed my eyes. I remembered that one summer day.

Reki and I were in the park watching the clouds. He asked me if I wanted to be his best friend that day. I said yes of course. Here we are now. A year ago we were friends and now our lives are screwed up.

I never told him about my home life. He never asked about it. It's been hard since the move. My dad's gone and my mom is never there. She works at the local hospital so her schedule is insanely busy. After dad died, she got really abusive and started drinking...a little too much...

She changed. She's kindhearted and sweet. You can see how much she cared about changing herself.

Then, I thought about Dad. Why did he have to die?! He was a good person. Kept mom calm, and the house in good order. He was always working so I've been independent since the beginning. He was always there for me and I trusted him.

I would do anything to see him again. Even just a wave or a smile from him would be enough. I would die happy. Truly happy. But of course, people are dumb and decide to hurt and kill for their own entertainment. Psychopaths.

When I was 12 I had gotten the news. My mom sat down with me in the living room, took my hand, and sighed.

"Your father passed away" she said while she bursted into tears. She never told me why.

My heart sank. Those were the four words that changed my life.

I looked up at the passing clouds.

"Where are you?" I said

I felt the cool air lift my eyes to the sky. The glowing stars scattered across the sky lit up my face. I smiled

"I love you dad" a tear rolled down my cheek "I miss you so much" I stood up "I need to see you again" I walked forward "I can't do this alone" I took a step "everyone is getting shot down" I took another step "goodbye" I said

I heard the rooftop door open behind me

"Langa?!" It was Reki "Langa, what are you doing?!"

"I'm done. I can't do the bad news, the fake smiles, the hospital" I said shakily "I love you, Reki and I'm doing this for you. So you don't have to worry about me. I won't be a burden on someone else's back" I wiped my tears "I'm tired. I'm fed up. I'm so close to breaking." I sighed "THE ONE PERSON I HAVE IS GONNA DIE ANYWAY. ITS ALL ABOUT HIM AND HIS STUPID DISEASES AND THE MEDICATION AND THE SKATE SHOP AND-" I froze.

He nodded as tears rolled down his cheeks

"So that's it, huh. It's about me."

"Reki I didn't-"

"SHUT UP" he hollered "GET THE FUCK AWAY FROM ME IF YOU FIND ME SO GODDAMN NARCISSISTIC"

"FINE I GUESS I WILL KILL MYSELF THEN"

"YOU'RE BETTER OFF WITHOUT ME ANYWAYS, I'M GONNA DIE SO JUST GIVE UP ON ME. THE ONLY ONE YOU HAVE LEFT IS YOUR MOTHER AND SHE'S NOT EVEN HERE HALF THE TIME. REALISTICALLY, YOU. HAVE. NOTHING." he shuddered. You could see how his eyes flooded with regret. "Langa I didn't mean it I-"

"Fine then. I'll stay out of your way. It's about me now isn't it? You keep living your miserable life in the hospital. You're not gonna make it out. I couldn't even do it and I'm not the one that's sick."

"Langa please, you can't-"

"Please what?! Stay?? Kiss you?? Tell you everything's gonna be okay??"

"SHUT UP LANGA. I SHOULDN'T HAVE SAID WHAT I SAID. I LOVE YOU MORE THAN YOU KNOW AND I NEED YOU TO STAY HERE SO WE CAN GET THROUGH THIS TOGETHER BECAUSE WHETHER I DIE OR NOT I DON'T WANT TO LIVE IN A WORLD WITHOUT YOU. A WORLD WITHOUT YOU WOULD BE HELL IF I'M BEING HONEST-"

"You just don't want my bloodstains on your name, do you? You take it back so you're not responsible and you're not seen as a bitch who told his friend to kill himself"

"Langa, who told me to keep trying skating after I fell down? You. Who has helped me through the nightmares and the sleepless nights? You. Who is the only good thing in my life right now? You. Like I said, I couldn't live in a world without you"

"You decided this was the time to open up? The one time that I don't want to talk, you decide to spill your fucking guts out?"

I looked over the edge of the building. The road was a long way down. I curled my hands into fists, took a deep breath, closed my eyes...

And jumped